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My Due Date: October 31, 2012I have given birth!
Age: 51 years old
Location: Houston, United States
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4w3d: Proceed With Caution!
By DestinyStarr » Posted Feb. 25, 2012 1:37pm - 287 views - 6 comments
It's a doggone shame to allow FEAR to keep you from certain things. From celebrating. From shouting to the rooftops, I'm here! I made it!
I would say that I am "cautiously optimistic" - but I'm not. I'm just purely OPTIMISTIC that this one WILL make it. To say "cautiously" I think puts into the universe that you do not believe that this will happen for you. Either that, or it is your 'safe guard' in case something does go awry.
Coming out of 2011, I experienced a MMC in April and a chemical/early mc in late December (in retrospect, I believe I had another chemical in August). Both times I created a profile here on CMP, and both times I felt deeply hurt, embarrassed, and sorrowful that the journey ended so abruptly for me.
Because of this, I was unsure about starting up my CMP profile again. I almost felt as if it was some kind of bad omen, and that I should surely wait until I am SURE that this one will stick. Ugh. A few days ago I was battling with uncertainly over my BFP. Needing to be SURE that I saw two lines.
The fear that miscarriage embeds in you can be crippling.
I am putting ALL of that behind me. I'm here. I'm pregnant. And I'm proud.
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4w3d: Proceed With Caution!
By DestinyStarr » Posted Feb. 25, 2012 1:37pm - 287 views - 6 comments
It's a doggone shame to allow FEAR to keep you from certain things. From celebrating. From shouting to the rooftops, I'm here! I made it!
I would say that I am "cautiously optimistic" - but I'm not. I'm just purely OPTIMISTIC that this one WILL make it. To say "cautiously" I think puts into the universe that you do not believe that this will happen for you. Either that, or it is your 'safe guard' in case something does go awry.
Coming out of 2011, I experienced a MMC in April and a chemical/early mc in late December (in retrospect, I believe I had another chemical in August). Both times I created a profile here on CMP, and both times I felt deeply hurt, embarrassed, and sorrowful that the journey ended so abruptly for me.
Because of this, I was unsure about starting up my CMP profile again. I almost felt as if it was some kind of bad omen, and that I should surely wait until I am SURE that this one will stick. Ugh. A few days ago I was battling with uncertainly over my BFP. Needing to be SURE that I saw two lines.
The fear that miscarriage embeds in you can be crippling.
I am putting ALL of that behind me. I'm here. I'm pregnant. And I'm proud.
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from Coomy08 » Posted Mar. 1, 2012 9:36am Congrats! I under stand the fear, I've m/c and I've had a son who was born a month early with his intestines on the outside of his abdominal wall so I know its hard with the worry that something will go wrong and trying not to get too excited or tell too many people in case somethings does go wrong. I'm in my 10th week now and still have those fears in the back of my mind, but I have faith that this one will be a healthy full term baby and I have faith that this pregnancy will be great for you too. Wishing you the best and here if you need an understanding ear. |
 | Comment from MadisonN » Posted Feb. 29, 2012 8:45am Congratulations!! Lots and lots of sticky vibes to you xx |
 | Comment from DestinyStarr » Posted Feb. 26, 2012 6:45pm Thank you all!!! |
 | Comment from WearindRed » Posted Feb. 25, 2012 5:29pm Sticky dust and positive vibes....all around. |
 | Comment from knicole27 » Posted Feb. 25, 2012 4:11pm I am so glad to see you here again. Something that gets me through daily is this "There is NO fear in perfect love" I have remained positive through out this entire pregnancy even in all my scares in this pregnancy I still remain optimistic and KNOW this pregnancy WILL result in a live full term birth of a healthy baby. Fear is not holding me back anymore. I don't even consider a miscarriage in my future. Yes I have had scares this pregnancy. Quite a few but I stick to my positive affirmations if you will I guess, and won't even believe it for a second that anything could be wrong. It's gotten me through a lot already. Congrats to you hun! This IS it! :) |
| Comment from lisserb » Posted Feb. 25, 2012 4:06pm And I'm with you! :) Sticky dust for both of us! |
