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My Due Date: I suffered a pregnancy lossAge: 36 years old
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Plans for hope and a future - pregnancy loss
By TheMrs0212 » Posted Mar. 6, 2013 12:58pm - 643 views - 5 comments
Yesterday was my final appointment to see if there was any growth of my three little ones.
Unfortunately, it looks like my pregnancy is over. The babies DID grow from my last appointment, however there were still no heartbeats detected. Two of the sacs were measuring at 6 weeks and one measured at 7 weeks 4 days and showed some growth inside. The doctors best guess at what happened is that they split very early on, but each one took too many chromosomes so they couldn't develop past a certain point.
I prayed about it a lot, and last Sunday I heard His answer loud and clear. A great sense of peace came over me, and I accepted it. I knew the news I was going to receive, but still... hearing it from a doctor was very painful. I am struggling with feeling like I've let my husband down. That I've messed up the one job I was put on this earth to do. I know it's irrational, but nothing I'm feeling makes much sense. There's also a lot of relief. Even though it wasn't the outcome we were hoping for, we are so glad to finally have some answers.
The doctor wanted me to go for a D&C next week, but I begged for something sooner. Not that I want to forget my babies, but I feel like after waiting for a month I really need some closure sooner rather than later. They ended up be able to work me in tomorrow at noon. I am so saddened that I even have to do this, but grateful for the fresh start.
We were told to wait one cycle before trying again, so we will do exactly that. We have so much love to give and are meant to have children in our life, one way or another.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11
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Plans for hope and a future - pregnancy loss
By TheMrs0212 » Posted Mar. 6, 2013 12:58pm - 643 views - 5 comments
Yesterday was my final appointment to see if there was any growth of my three little ones.
Unfortunately, it looks like my pregnancy is over. The babies DID grow from my last appointment, however there were still no heartbeats detected. Two of the sacs were measuring at 6 weeks and one measured at 7 weeks 4 days and showed some growth inside. The doctors best guess at what happened is that they split very early on, but each one took too many chromosomes so they couldn't develop past a certain point.
I prayed about it a lot, and last Sunday I heard His answer loud and clear. A great sense of peace came over me, and I accepted it. I knew the news I was going to receive, but still... hearing it from a doctor was very painful. I am struggling with feeling like I've let my husband down. That I've messed up the one job I was put on this earth to do. I know it's irrational, but nothing I'm feeling makes much sense. There's also a lot of relief. Even though it wasn't the outcome we were hoping for, we are so glad to finally have some answers.
The doctor wanted me to go for a D&C next week, but I begged for something sooner. Not that I want to forget my babies, but I feel like after waiting for a month I really need some closure sooner rather than later. They ended up be able to work me in tomorrow at noon. I am so saddened that I even have to do this, but grateful for the fresh start.
We were told to wait one cycle before trying again, so we will do exactly that. We have so much love to give and are meant to have children in our life, one way or another.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from shannonbpowers » Posted Apr. 26, 2013 7:01am So, so sorry for your loss. *huggles* |
 | Comment from HasntSunkIn » Posted Mar. 12, 2013 4:04pm I can't imagine what you're going through right now. Your grace and outlook are inspiring. Wishing the best for you and your family. I hope you are able to take it easy and just enjoy each other for the next month. |
 | Comment from Lozie84 » Posted Mar. 8, 2013 2:47am oh Kylie, Im so sorry darlin. My heart aches for you. I am so glad you asked the drs not to make you wait for the D&C. I pray for the procedure, that God will guide the drs hands, and that you have a speedy recovery. I hope you will stay in touch and let us know how you are doing. and Look forward to your future pregnancy. really proud of your strength in your faith. i hope you can see that you haven't done anything wrong and you havent failed your babies or your husband. You've done amazingly well and i wish you the absolute best xx |
 | Comment from lyssa787 » Posted Mar. 7, 2013 8:05am I'm sorry for your losses, but your strength and faith are truly to be admired. I look forward to hearing about your future pregnancy! Enjoy your month of peace :) |
| Comment from lucyblue » Posted Mar. 6, 2013 1:23pm I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. *Hugs* |
