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My Due Date: March 3, 2014I have given birth!
Age: 41 years old
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Monday 01/06/2014 - 32 Weeks!
By So_much_hope » Posted Jan. 6, 2014 5:22pm - 473 views - 1 comment
Yay! 8 months!! Though it is so confusing! People ask me how far along I am and I tell them 8 months. Then they say, "Wow! Only a month left!" Then I have to explain to them not really... that pregnancy is actually a 10 month stint. 40 weeks... What is 40 divided by 4? Yep, thats right 10... Yes, humans actually are pregnant for 10 months. So 8 weeks to go. I really don't know how I am going to survive another 8 weeks and THEN make it through labor.
My reflux has gotten HORRIBLE. I made the mistake of eating late on Saturday night then eating Sunday morning like I usually would. I was miserable all day Sunday... hiccuping and burping.. trying to keep food down and feeling horrible. It didn't go away until about 6pm and the last thing I ate was at 12 noon! On top of that my neck, back, and belly hurt yesterday. I was a mess. I honestly don't know how I will survive another 8 weeks. At least I haven't been having horrible heartburn since I started on the protonix twice a day. Thank goodness for protonix!!
One of the most annoying things I am dealing with is numbness of my hands and carpel tunnel pain when I bend my wrists. If I have any pressure on my hands at all when I am sleeping - like if my hand is under my pillow it goes numb... usually just either my little and ring finger or my thumb, pointer, and middle, but sometime the whole hand goes numb. And of course it wakes me up. Sometimes I'll be sitting on the couch and need to use my hand to help get up and I'll get a shooting pain through my wrist. I will be very excited to have my body back to myself though I am sure it will be a body I don't recognize.
I know I shouldn't be complaining about my pregnancy. I worked SOOOOOO hard for this and it is all I ever wanted for so long but I am miserable. I had no idea I'd have such stomach issues. But with everything I am going though... if I would have known before I got pregnant I'd be this miserable I'd do it again in a heartbeat.
I have also become very nervous about becoming a mother. I guess the emotions I am having are normal but I am scared. I am scared Jeff will be useless in labor and afterwards. I am scared I won't be a good mother and my child won't like me. I am scared that she'll be more than I can handle once she becomes a toddler. I am scared she have health problems. I am a ball of worries and I hate it.
Those who say the first trimester is the worst are crazy. The 3rd is definitely the worst. I am only a few weeks into it and I am miserable. I can't imagine how much worse I am going to fee with each passing week.
We leave for Denver for dh's annual Sales Meeting and Gala on Thursday. I really hope the flight goes ok and I am not extrememly uncomfortable. I am very nervous about that. I got my dress for it. I feel like a big seal in it. Its silky black on top and velvet on the bottom with rouching on the sides. I am not a velvet fan but there's not a ton to chose from while pg. I got a shimmery wrap to cover my arms since they look somewhat like what my thighs used to look like... and that is not pretty... I borrowed some open toed sling back low heeled shoes from my SIL. They should look decent with it. I am sure I will end up wearing my hair down and straight or with howevery much curl I can coax into the ends. Oh, when I bought the dress I also bought a new bra. Cup size F!!
We started our baby classes last Monday and have another one tonight. We learned a few things but I am NOT impressed by the teacher. I asked why they say you are pregnant for 9 months but its actually 10 and she started going off about how a lunar month is 28.5 days which didn't make sense at all. She never did answer my question. She then proceeded to dance around a slew of other questions and never give real answers. I hope the classes get better or we might just quit.... so far there isn't another couple I really want to seek out to get to know either.. I was really hoping to make some friends......
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Monday 01/06/2014 - 32 Weeks!
By So_much_hope » Posted Jan. 6, 2014 5:22pm - 473 views - 1 comment
Yay! 8 months!! Though it is so confusing! People ask me how far along I am and I tell them 8 months. Then they say, "Wow! Only a month left!" Then I have to explain to them not really... that pregnancy is actually a 10 month stint. 40 weeks... What is 40 divided by 4? Yep, thats right 10... Yes, humans actually are pregnant for 10 months. So 8 weeks to go. I really don't know how I am going to survive another 8 weeks and THEN make it through labor.
My reflux has gotten HORRIBLE. I made the mistake of eating late on Saturday night then eating Sunday morning like I usually would. I was miserable all day Sunday... hiccuping and burping.. trying to keep food down and feeling horrible. It didn't go away until about 6pm and the last thing I ate was at 12 noon! On top of that my neck, back, and belly hurt yesterday. I was a mess. I honestly don't know how I will survive another 8 weeks. At least I haven't been having horrible heartburn since I started on the protonix twice a day. Thank goodness for protonix!!
One of the most annoying things I am dealing with is numbness of my hands and carpel tunnel pain when I bend my wrists. If I have any pressure on my hands at all when I am sleeping - like if my hand is under my pillow it goes numb... usually just either my little and ring finger or my thumb, pointer, and middle, but sometime the whole hand goes numb. And of course it wakes me up. Sometimes I'll be sitting on the couch and need to use my hand to help get up and I'll get a shooting pain through my wrist. I will be very excited to have my body back to myself though I am sure it will be a body I don't recognize.
I know I shouldn't be complaining about my pregnancy. I worked SOOOOOO hard for this and it is all I ever wanted for so long but I am miserable. I had no idea I'd have such stomach issues. But with everything I am going though... if I would have known before I got pregnant I'd be this miserable I'd do it again in a heartbeat.
I have also become very nervous about becoming a mother. I guess the emotions I am having are normal but I am scared. I am scared Jeff will be useless in labor and afterwards. I am scared I won't be a good mother and my child won't like me. I am scared that she'll be more than I can handle once she becomes a toddler. I am scared she have health problems. I am a ball of worries and I hate it.
Those who say the first trimester is the worst are crazy. The 3rd is definitely the worst. I am only a few weeks into it and I am miserable. I can't imagine how much worse I am going to fee with each passing week.
We leave for Denver for dh's annual Sales Meeting and Gala on Thursday. I really hope the flight goes ok and I am not extrememly uncomfortable. I am very nervous about that. I got my dress for it. I feel like a big seal in it. Its silky black on top and velvet on the bottom with rouching on the sides. I am not a velvet fan but there's not a ton to chose from while pg. I got a shimmery wrap to cover my arms since they look somewhat like what my thighs used to look like... and that is not pretty... I borrowed some open toed sling back low heeled shoes from my SIL. They should look decent with it. I am sure I will end up wearing my hair down and straight or with howevery much curl I can coax into the ends. Oh, when I bought the dress I also bought a new bra. Cup size F!!
We started our baby classes last Monday and have another one tonight. We learned a few things but I am NOT impressed by the teacher. I asked why they say you are pregnant for 9 months but its actually 10 and she started going off about how a lunar month is 28.5 days which didn't make sense at all. She never did answer my question. She then proceeded to dance around a slew of other questions and never give real answers. I hope the classes get better or we might just quit.... so far there isn't another couple I really want to seek out to get to know either.. I was really hoping to make some friends......
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from Krod0519 » Posted Jan. 6, 2014 6:34pm Sorry you are so miserable! But your post cracked me up, i hate getting dressed as a prego, its hard, nothing fits right and everything is bigger lol. Don't worry, it will be over soon and you will be an amazing mother. Trust me I have done it twice and some days I look at my DD and think WOW I have an 8 year old and I didn't totally fuck her up! She is smart and alive lol, so don't worry, the mom part comes naturally. As for the misery, well, it sucks, just think it will all be worth it once that baby is in your arms :) |
