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My Due Date: March 3, 2014
I have given birth!
Age: 41 years old

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Tuesday 01/28/14 - 35 Weeks 1 Day
By So_much_hope » Posted Jan. 28, 2014 5:24pm - 477 views - 1 comment

I am trying to be better about journaling.. we'll see how long I can keep it up.

I am so excited my parents got back from Hawaii last night. Once I get off the ferry and am on the drive home I'll call and talk to my mom. Its so weird not having heard her voice in over a week. We texted every day but I miss talking to her. I have a lot to fill her in on too.. Sounds like when I come back from maternity leave they may be promoting me to a Project Manager. It will be a nice pay raise but a huge increase in responsibility because I'll have my own job. Usually when my company promotes people to PM they'll work on a job with a Senior PM or other PMs... the job they have me on is only $10,000,000 so it sounds like it will be all mine.......... I am super scared, hopefully I can figure it out and make it work.

Today was awful. I got to work only to find out that my boss had sent a meeting invite for a breakfast meeting at 7pm last night. Well I was in baby class until 9:30 and when I got out I saw the meeting invite but chose to ignore it, thinking it would be for later toady or later in the week. I felt so bad that I let something slip through the cracks and I was bummed about missing a free breakfast too. And of course being pregnant it brought me to tears........... I just hate not being on top of my game!

Then the rest of the day I was SO uncomfortable. Rella has found a way to get back into my ribs.. I thought she had dropped out of reach of the ribs but apparently not. I also cannot bend at all. Like it even hurts to wipe after going to the bathroom (tmi I know.........). I am just sooooooooo big now.

I had 3 menstrual cramp type contractions at work today. They were pretty much back to back.. I'd say they all happened within an hour. Then nothing. Still having the tight hard stomach braxton hicks. They happen so often that I don't bother counting. When I checked my cervix last night I swear it felt softer... I didn't feel any opening though. Who knows if I am even feeling the rigth part, lol.

Tomorrow I have my OB appointment at 2pm. We are going to bring up the subject of when I can be taken off of work and put on std. Jeff doesn't want me working on the island past 2/18/14 (2/17/14 is a holiday so I might as well not go off until the next day and collect full pay for that day). And physically and emotionally I am done. I have my good days and bad days and today was a bad day. I hate how I get overwelmed so easily. I don't even recognize the person I've become. Its quite scary.

And my hand (right one) is killing me today.. the top of it. Up until today it was always the bottom of my wrists. Very annoying. I guess I will ice it tonight as I doze off to the tv.

Even with feeling awful, overwhelmed, anxious, and so uncomfortable I boarder misery, I feel very blessed. I am looking forward to my baby shower this weekend and I've scheduled my maternity photos for 2/15/14... I will be 38 weeks so hopefully I don't look too giant and the stretch marks aren't too visible :-/

I've attached a photo I took this morning before work. No makeup and hair is not done... I am in my natural state!! Like this is how I look 99% of the time.

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Comment from kimmy85 » Posted Jan. 28, 2014 6:52pm
You look great!!!! And an early congrats on the promotions!!! that's amazing! and as for your maternity pics if you do have the stretch marks a good photographer will edit those out for you ;) ya! getting close!


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