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My Due Date: September 14, 2020
I am 10 weeks and 0 days pregnant » 210 days to go
Age: 38 years old
Location: United States

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A bit embarrassing....
By Angela18 » Posted Sep. 5, 2018 1:56pm - 125 views - 2 comments

I’m starting to stress about D-day, and I feel a little embarrassed and alone because after my third I noticed I have a prolapse and until I had it, had no idea that could happen. I mean, I you hear about don’t lift heavy things or you’ll hurt yourself but I thought, yeah, tell that to my special needs kid who’s like a sack of potatoes at times. Plus, without the specific implications of how I could hurt myself, I thought I work out and what not, I’m strong enough. Now I feel it’s happened because I’m actually weak and I don’t know others with this issue other than my grandma who passed. Doc says to not do surgery till I’m done having kids so in the meantime I’m trying to do my kegels even though I’m not 100% sure I’m doing them the best. I mean I get it but it’s hard for me to isolate those muscles and not also flex my other muscles. Plus I’m always carrying someone around or something. Anyway I know I’m expecting my 5th and people have opinions about that, but I’m really hoping my body holds out so we can try again. We’ve been through so much agony in the past about thinking we should not procreate together due to Autism thing, now we’ve come to a place where we feel we’ve been put in the right direction to keep going and I’m worried every thing will fall out or I’ll need a hysterectomy or something. Not that I’m that bad yet, but it does progress a little each time. My old neighbor had 9 kids and said she never tore or anything, no prolapse,and I tear every damn time because the moron who delivered my first, who was small, decided to give me an unnecessary episiotomy. I’d love to know what it’s like without that excruciating pain for once lol.

So I guess I’m venting...I’m losing sleep over it because it really sucks to have and I really am not ready to lose my mommy parts. I feel kegels don’t work but maybe I’m just not patient. Again it all leaves me feeling a little inadequate that I’m falling apart. Ok, pity party is done, just needed to let that out. Hope all you lovely mommas are doing well.

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Comment from Angela18 » Posted Sep. 5, 2018 4:52pm
Oh wow, that’s great to hear, I wonder if this late in the game it could still help me...I doubt there is anything here but I’m going to ask next appt. do you have any websites that you know of or just your therapist? All I know is to sit and squeeze lol, nothing elaborate

Comment from MrsFord » Posted Sep. 5, 2018 3:21pm
Definitely don’t feel embarrassed! Our bodies go through so much to carry, and birth our tiny humans, some of it isn’t so glamorous. I found out I had a partially prolapse at 7 months pp. it was recommended to me to see a pelvic floor physiotherapist and after 3 visits, massage (which was HORRIBLE), and some exercises, my muscles corrected! I highly recommend looking into a pelvic floor therapist, if there is one in your area. Good luck!!

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