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My Due Date: November 24, 2015I have given birth!
Age: 37 years old
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Overly emotional this morning
By Cattsmeow » Posted Jul. 7, 2015 8:52am - 177 views - 0 comments
I've been up for about an hour with my youngest already and silently crying while I held him in my lap before he wiggled away to go play. He's going to be 1 year old in less than a month and it doesn't feel as if he's really been here for a whole year yet. I love my hour or so of quiet time with just Brandt. It's so very special to me. By the time he's ready for his morning nap, Tyler is awake, so I get my quiet time with just him while the baby sleeps, and that time is just as special to me. He turned 5 in April and starts Kindergarten in just over a month. I am so not ready for that and the thought made me start crying even more. My babies are growing so fast and I just want to stop time, even for just a moment, and snuggle them close while they're still little enough to sit on my lap. I love being able to be a SAHM, and it's one of my biggest blessings that I am fortunate enough to have this extra time with my kids. Even though I have days where they drive me crazy and I just want 5 minutes to myself, I am so very happy that I have this opportunity to be with them all the time. I am feeling Valerie kick around and move more frequently, and every kick is just a little stronger than the last. I am trying to cherish this pregnancy as much as I can, as she will be my last. The last time I get excited about a positive test. The last time I feel a child of my own kicking around inside of my body. The last newborn of my very own that I get to hold and love. I started thinking about that and started crying even more. I knew I was being more emotional than usual, but this morning just sucks.
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Overly emotional this morning
By Cattsmeow » Posted Jul. 7, 2015 8:52am - 177 views - 0 comments
I've been up for about an hour with my youngest already and silently crying while I held him in my lap before he wiggled away to go play. He's going to be 1 year old in less than a month and it doesn't feel as if he's really been here for a whole year yet. I love my hour or so of quiet time with just Brandt. It's so very special to me. By the time he's ready for his morning nap, Tyler is awake, so I get my quiet time with just him while the baby sleeps, and that time is just as special to me. He turned 5 in April and starts Kindergarten in just over a month. I am so not ready for that and the thought made me start crying even more. My babies are growing so fast and I just want to stop time, even for just a moment, and snuggle them close while they're still little enough to sit on my lap. I love being able to be a SAHM, and it's one of my biggest blessings that I am fortunate enough to have this extra time with my kids. Even though I have days where they drive me crazy and I just want 5 minutes to myself, I am so very happy that I have this opportunity to be with them all the time. I am feeling Valerie kick around and move more frequently, and every kick is just a little stronger than the last. I am trying to cherish this pregnancy as much as I can, as she will be my last. The last time I get excited about a positive test. The last time I feel a child of my own kicking around inside of my body. The last newborn of my very own that I get to hold and love. I started thinking about that and started crying even more. I knew I was being more emotional than usual, but this morning just sucks.
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