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My Due Date: November 24, 2015
I have given birth!
Age: 37 years old

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Valerie has her surgery in the morning
By Cattsmeow » Posted Dec. 9, 2015 10:04pm - 341 views - 6 comments

Valerie has her surgery in the morning. Tonight is going to be a rough night. She can't have formula after 2am, and breastmilk after 4. I have 2 ounces of breastmilk saved back (she'll take between 3 and 4 ounces of breastmilk per bottle), and I am breaking my word to my husband and pumping a couple more times before I go to bed so I can have a little more bm to give her before the feeding cutoff. He understands why I am doing it. Neither of us want to see Valerie going hungry longer than absolutely necessary. It's not like we can explain to a 3 week old why she can't have a bottle, and I highly doubt her binky will satisfy her for 4 hours pre-surgery. I probably won't be able to get much more than what I already have put back, but it's still worth a shot.

As for my day, it got a little better. I'm still fighting the depression, but I don't feel like I'm drowning in it like I did this morning. My husband surprised me when he got home from work by bringing me a rose, and he took me and the kids out for dinner at Olive Garden in celebration of my birthday. I would not normally order a drink with dinner when we have the kids with us, but I broke my rule and got a glass of sangria. It was very tasty. I broke my oldest son's heart when I told him he couldn't have the fruit out of it, but our waitress was amazing and brought him a small bowl of strawberries, so he perked up pretty quickly. My oldest also made me a necklace at school today, and I love it. It's too small for me to actuallly wear, but I hung it up on the wall in my room. That especially made my day better. I still want to sit and cry, and I will probably go have a good cry when I go to bed (it helps), but I know I am not alone. Things will get better. Maybe not tomorrow, or next week, or even next month. But they will get better.

Comments for this Journal Entry

Comment from MalPal85 » Posted Dec. 10, 2015 10:35pm
Good luck tomorrow. I'll be thinking of you guys! Tom and I just had a discussion about going to Olive Garden this weekend.

Comment from rcorinne » Posted Dec. 10, 2015 3:19pm
Glad her surgery went well. My son had surgery at 7.5 months, and it was so tough distracting him from his obvious hunger. Hope your depression lifts soon. Keep writing. It's therapeutic.

Comment from Summer0120 » Posted Dec. 10, 2015 3:04pm
Awesome!

Comment from Cattsmeow » Posted Dec. 10, 2015 2:22pm
Thanks, ladies! Valerie's surgery went great. She was in and out of the OR in less than 20 minutes, no problems or anything!

Comment from Summer0120 » Posted Dec. 10, 2015 12:00pm
Good luck at surgery today! I am sure she will do just fine. Olive Garden sounds amazing right now. It was hard going there last month and not being able to drink wine. I can't wait to go again when not pregnant. Glad your day got better yesterday. :)

Comment from sunshinebear711 » Posted Dec. 10, 2015 7:38am
*hugs* I wish I could give you real hugs or help out. I remember the depression, and it is truly awful. But, things do get better and easier. Sending good thoughts your way for the surgery.


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