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My Due Date: July 17, 2014
I have given birth!
Age: 38 years old

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Down today.. again
By Jelly-Bean » Posted Jun. 9, 2014 4:23am - 381 views - 1 comment

I don't know if it's hormones, my aching body or a combination of it all but I am feeling increasingly depressed.

There are some (probably silly) things bugging me and in the greater scheme of things I should be elated..
I'm just not.

I am sooo looking forward to this baby.. it just feels so long to go (yeah yeah 38 days... read above sentence..)

I'm also sad for my friend and I cannot understand why she has to struggle and be sad... and I can't do anything for her.. I don't even know what to say anymore or how to be of ANY comfort to her..

Hubby is in the middle of an especially bad phase of freaken PMS.. (that's how I describe it as he is more touchy and grumpy and mean than usual..) and I just can't focus on anything.

I want to curl up and sleep for the next few weeks.. take myself out of circulation as it were... (Is there some biological instinct that makes mothers-to-be want to hide out in the last stretch..??)

I wish I could make hubby understand even just a FRACTION of what I am going through.. not only physically, but in terms of emotions, anxieties, stresses and worries. I've tried talking but it doesn't help.. he just belittles it as exaggeration (on the physical part) or ... "silly emotional women.." .. blah on the emotional side..

Makes me feel insanely alone.

Weepy now.. (damnit!)

I want my mom.
I want to sleep.
I want some love and care and to be fret over..
I want to be happy and excited and not feel like this.

I want the freaken Disney movie...

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Comment from autumn7 » Posted Jun. 9, 2014 12:07pm
I am so sorry that you are so down. Life would be awesome as a Disney movie... But then againn do we really want to break out in song the whole time? Or deal with wolves or be locked in a tower? ;) and can you imagine how sore your neck will be if you slept for a hundred years? And which prince will kiss a girl with 100 years worh of morning breath? Lol. My point is. Life has its ups and down, but we get through them..

Your friend apreciates you more than you wil ever know!! You don't need to say anything.. Just listen and say that it sucks ;) if you were closer, wine would have been an option ;)

You deserve to be hapy and I hope that you find a way to be happy. Xx


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