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My Due Date: April 16, 2013
I am postpartum » My due date was more than 2 weeks ago
Age: 42 years old

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Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! and no i'm not being Tony the Tiger....
By ladyrobynne » Posted Oct. 21, 2012 7:40am - 284 views - 0 comments

so today is not a good day in the Foulger household. I'm feeling a lot of things and glamerous and sexy are NOT in there!

I am miserable today. DH has been away all weekend on a stag do. I'm annoyed cos i never get to go away like that with my friends...I NEVER see my friends...they're all too busy with work (I'm unemployed cos of my heart and bi polar.) or with their family. or in the case of one of my friends she goes away to places for holidays and i can't join her (no money) and wants to do things that cost a bloody arm and a leg...DH made a joke yesterday about going to a 'titty bar' which in all fairness is my name for a strip club and i DID say to him that he could go with his friends as it was a once in a lifetime event a stag do for his friend, and it's what his friend wanted to do for his stag do. He made some crack about being face deep in cleavage. i was a bit upset to say the least. my friend is talking to me online and hasn't asked me how i am. it's only a small thing, but she's moaning about how her life sucks cos she can't get to a party that I'm not going to cos we can't afford it...she has no plan for what to do about money. hasn't spoken to uni or her lecturer and has no plan in place to get money as she has only £83 to her name. there is no work near her that she can do over the weekend as they don't have anything available and i feel like she is looking to me to help her solve the problem. But there is NO frigging way...I havn't tidied the house, i havn't had a bath and lord knows when the last time i brushed my teeth was...i've had all of two packets of crisps and a yoghurt today to eat. i just don't want to eat anything that is in the house. I'm just not hungry. All of these signs are indicators that i am depressed. I have no patience. My poor dog has been shouted at loads today even though he's done very little wrong! we have a stray cat who comes to visit, but my cat (i say my cat, he's the hubby's baby lol) doesn't like him so growls and hisses at him all the time and sulks and doesn't eat. the stray cat however is lovely. very pleasant and happy and chatty and i like it when he comes to visit because he likes me and talks to me not like my cat lol but he stinks lol

I'm just pissed off. i feel horrible. i would like my hair cutting, i would like a massage, i would like a full nights sleep, i would like clothes that fit that are flattering, I am doubting my ability to be a parent. If i can't handle pregnancy then how in the HELL am i gonna manage a screaming, shitting machine and only sleeping odd numbers of hours at a time? and dealing with all of that AND bi-polar AND a heart conditions?! what the HELL am i doing?! what the hell was i thinking getting pregnant?! I would like to be able to stop worrying, i would like to have lots of money so i didn't get a little bit of grief off my hubby for eating so much cheese every day. I would like to throw the healthy eating plan out of the window and give up watching my waistline. say F**k it all. who cares what size i am after my baby is born? i'll just be a big wobbly fatty. but because of who i am and the way i have been raised i don't quit. I don't just give up like that. I wont just let it all go to pot cos that's not how i roll. I'll help sort my friend out who just seems to constantly revel in being miserable. she has a lot going on in her life that isn't the best but she doesn't do anything to sort it out or to deal with it. I keep telling her what she should do and it never happens so why the hell do i bother? i don't need to deal with all of that above what i have going on

normal services will return as soon as normal once someone has come round and clonked me on the head like i'm some dodgy old telly with bad reception...

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