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My Due Date: May 30, 2015
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Age: 36 years old
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The paranoia of pregnancy
By Quartz3 » Posted Sep. 29, 2014 2:15pm - 78 views - 3 comments

How I envy those women who just blissfully soar through pregnancy, unaware of the possible not-so-happy endings.

Oddly enough, because I have never suffered a miscarriage (*knock on wood*), this is obviously my first fear in early pregnancy. Possibly because it allows me not to think any further (i.e. of the dreaded NT scan), but still. Right now, I'm terrified of a miscarriage. Which, again, is odd, because I wished so many times that the abnormalities of Baby 1 would've caused a miscarriage. But still. I got a faint positive on 9DPO, and another faint line on 13 DPO. Now of course I'm thinking of taking another test just to see if I'd finally have a strong positive. And it doesn't help that the few symptoms I had seem to be going away - ie breasts are pretty much back to normal, the cramps are rare, the fatigue isn't so bad (and could easily be related to Life With a 14-Month-Old) and although I was very hungry for a while last week, my appetite seems to have returned to its regular state. All this doesn't mean anything, I know. 5 weeks is early for symptoms and I have never had a lot of them anyway. But why be rational when you can be paranoid, right?

So right now, my feeling is, something is wrong. Or something is going to go wrong.
Baby's heart is supposed to start beating this week, and already I'm wondering when I'm going to start trying to find her heartbeat with my doppler. Or rather, I'm wondering how long I will be able to put it off!

Comments for this Journal Entry

Comment from stillfuntryin » Posted Sep. 29, 2014 3:24pm
I ment to say very little symptoms in first tri

Comment from stillfuntryin » Posted Sep. 29, 2014 3:22pm
Its a natural self defense mechanism for you to prepare for the worst, I was sure this little baby wouldn'take it bit I'm now 33 weeks with a boy who measures consistently ahead last scan being a whole 4 weeks! I had very gee symptoms in my first trimester and although I fall in the " lucky " catigorie because of that while I was in my first tri just a little reassurance from a symptom would have been nice! You will be extremely lucky to get anything on the doppler before 10 weeks.

Comment from knicole27 » Posted Sep. 29, 2014 2:31pm
Praying everything is ok. Like you I convinced myself many times that I was going to have ectopic pregnancy then I was going miscarry and that something was wrong . My tests were also pretty faint compared to that of Liam's . Most days I didn't feel pregnant at all . Many scenarios entered my mind all the time . We just had our recent scan at 14 weeks and he was measuring 14 weeks 6 days and I was told "all looks normal" but I'm still freaked out . Hang in there lady . Your in good company and we are here when you need to vent ,cry , worry whatever !

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