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My Due Date: November 30, 2012I have given birth!
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Just feel like venting
By Kfinzue » Posted Oct. 25, 2012 10:57am - 347 views - 0 comments
Urg! Where to start! I feel so stressed and frusterated. I'm trying so hard to stay relaxed and positive but time is running out and I feel like nothing is going according to plan. It's easy to say everything will work out (because it does) but that does make me feel any better. 35 days from today I'm due. 35 days from today I need to be out of the apartment and into a new home. 35 days from my due date and I find out I have to get a new OB/GYN. In less than 35 days great uncle Dennis will die. In less than 35 days I may have to give up Hadley, our lab. How am I supposed to stay positive when so much is going wrong? On top of that Adam and I never talk, never see each other, never get time to just have fun.
Our apartment building is closing down due to lack of customers at the shop below and we need to be out by my due date. How are we supposed to save money for rent, a down deposite, first months rent, pet deposite AND a baby, especially when I'll be out of work soon..? Then yesterday I find out my OB/GYN is having complications with her pregnancy and won't be back to work till next year. I had to reschedule my appointment from yesterday to today. I start my weekly visits this week and they don't even have an OB for me to see. Today I will be seeing the nurse practitioner because so many of the OB doctors are either away on vacation or are not accepting patients. I have no idea if I'll even get to stay at the clinic or if I will have to find a new one. But most clinics around here don't accept women so late into their pregnancies. I guess I'm just kind of left out in the cold. It's not like I can just not go to see them, my baby's health is important to me. What do you do when no one anywhere will take you? Yesterday mom got a call from her cousin, and I guess uncle Dennis has a day to one week to survive. I'm not super close to uncle Dennis but the whole life and death thing is really hitting home to me. And he really is a great guy. Mom is taking it really hard. I wish I knew how to comfort her. We've been working with Hadley to get her to quit jumping but haven't had much luck. If she doesn't quit I think we have to get rid of her. We can't have her jumping on the baby, or people holding the baby. And almost ALL the places we have found that we could afford are no pet facilities. Right now we can't afford to say no to anything we could get. Adam is so resistant to get ride of her, and tell me I don't love her. Which hurts me very badly. I love her so so much, I just can't justify being homeless all because we won't give up our dog. Especially when we're expecting. Like people would be like 'you're saying no to a home for you, your child and your future husband becuase you have a dog?'. Baby and its needs always comes before all else. Apparently Adam disagrees though. I know he loves her but it bothers me he picks her over the baby. He says that's not what he's doing becuase we could have both, and he's right, we could, but right now beggers can't be choosers. The other day he told me he would not give her up no matter what and I got angry and told him that he could just take her and find their own home and leave the baby and me and I'd take care of us. I felt horrible for saying it but how can he sit there and act like she's so much more important than the baby. I obviously love her too, and would love to keep her, but right now a roof over our heads so close to when baby is coming trumps wanting to keep the dog. He's so hard headed, once he gets something in his mind there's no reasoning with him, no working things out. How are we supposed to raise a child together when he's so strongly opinionated about so many things? He wants me to stay home with baby and not go back to work and he has all these things decided about how he wants things to be. I'm willing to negotiate and meet in the middle on things but he is so un willing to sway even a little. I can't just give
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Just feel like venting
By Kfinzue » Posted Oct. 25, 2012 10:57am - 347 views - 0 comments
Urg! Where to start! I feel so stressed and frusterated. I'm trying so hard to stay relaxed and positive but time is running out and I feel like nothing is going according to plan. It's easy to say everything will work out (because it does) but that does make me feel any better. 35 days from today I'm due. 35 days from today I need to be out of the apartment and into a new home. 35 days from my due date and I find out I have to get a new OB/GYN. In less than 35 days great uncle Dennis will die. In less than 35 days I may have to give up Hadley, our lab. How am I supposed to stay positive when so much is going wrong? On top of that Adam and I never talk, never see each other, never get time to just have fun.
Our apartment building is closing down due to lack of customers at the shop below and we need to be out by my due date. How are we supposed to save money for rent, a down deposite, first months rent, pet deposite AND a baby, especially when I'll be out of work soon..? Then yesterday I find out my OB/GYN is having complications with her pregnancy and won't be back to work till next year. I had to reschedule my appointment from yesterday to today. I start my weekly visits this week and they don't even have an OB for me to see. Today I will be seeing the nurse practitioner because so many of the OB doctors are either away on vacation or are not accepting patients. I have no idea if I'll even get to stay at the clinic or if I will have to find a new one. But most clinics around here don't accept women so late into their pregnancies. I guess I'm just kind of left out in the cold. It's not like I can just not go to see them, my baby's health is important to me. What do you do when no one anywhere will take you? Yesterday mom got a call from her cousin, and I guess uncle Dennis has a day to one week to survive. I'm not super close to uncle Dennis but the whole life and death thing is really hitting home to me. And he really is a great guy. Mom is taking it really hard. I wish I knew how to comfort her. We've been working with Hadley to get her to quit jumping but haven't had much luck. If she doesn't quit I think we have to get rid of her. We can't have her jumping on the baby, or people holding the baby. And almost ALL the places we have found that we could afford are no pet facilities. Right now we can't afford to say no to anything we could get. Adam is so resistant to get ride of her, and tell me I don't love her. Which hurts me very badly. I love her so so much, I just can't justify being homeless all because we won't give up our dog. Especially when we're expecting. Like people would be like 'you're saying no to a home for you, your child and your future husband becuase you have a dog?'. Baby and its needs always comes before all else. Apparently Adam disagrees though. I know he loves her but it bothers me he picks her over the baby. He says that's not what he's doing becuase we could have both, and he's right, we could, but right now beggers can't be choosers. The other day he told me he would not give her up no matter what and I got angry and told him that he could just take her and find their own home and leave the baby and me and I'd take care of us. I felt horrible for saying it but how can he sit there and act like she's so much more important than the baby. I obviously love her too, and would love to keep her, but right now a roof over our heads so close to when baby is coming trumps wanting to keep the dog. He's so hard headed, once he gets something in his mind there's no reasoning with him, no working things out. How are we supposed to raise a child together when he's so strongly opinionated about so many things? He wants me to stay home with baby and not go back to work and he has all these things decided about how he wants things to be. I'm willing to negotiate and meet in the middle on things but he is so un willing to sway even a little. I can't just give
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