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My Due Date: January 3, 2022I am postpartum » My due date was more than 2 weeks ago
Age: 45 years old
Location: Canada
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Trip to the ER *lotsa tmi*
By dakotagurrl » Posted Mar. 7, 2016 8:21pm - 1869 views - 18 comments
What a week...fuck that, what a day! Ok quick rundown. Every Sunday marks a new week. This is going strictly off lmp. Ok so as of last Sunday am (9wks), I've had brown ccm but only a small amount, max 1/4 tsp/day and only after a poop. I don't even slightly struggle to poop so this isn't something I'm pushing out, it's more or less being brought along for the ride. About the middle of the week it switched to a caramel colour and more of an ewcm. Again, less than 1/4 tsp/day. Not enough to panic but enough to not feel secure anymore...despite the doppler.
Anyways, I jumped in the shower this am (10+1), maybe 10mins into shaving, I see a stream of bright red blood run down my left leg. I instantly thought I cut myself. Sometimes it happens and u just don't feel it....well, I don't anyways. So I bend down to see which poor part got the slice this week, none of em. I saw a faucet of red pouring out of my vag. It looked like the shower was running down my back and making it more than it was, but the shower was off. Instant panic and tears. I literally froze and stared in awe. There was so much blood and zero indication that it was gonna happen. I was truly shocked! I got out and sat on the bathroom floor losing Idk how much blood while my tear-filled eyes and shaky hands struggled to aim the probe to find a HB. It took what seemed like forever, but was really only a few seconds, and I found it. Hearing that strong, fast thumping, gave me the strength to pick my ass up, reshower and tidy up the bloody mess I left behind before heading to the ER for some answers.
The ER RN'S were awesome. They had blood drawn and me into a scan within an hour of getting through the waiting room doors...the waiting area was a diff story, smfh. The U/S tech was a doll too. She told me straight up that she couldn't discuss anything with me becuz it was emergent, which I expected. But she did leave the screen ever so slightly turned so I could see there was a wiggly baby in there, and she whispered "there's a HB, it's 174" and smiled. We didn't discuss anything further tho. About 30mins after the scan my results were back and the RN came to tell me.
Gestational sac measures 5.42cm with a single live fetus with a CRL of 3.99cm measuring 10+6 and a FHR of 174. So that's good! The subchorionic hemorrhage is deemed large and measures 6.0 x 7.0 x 2.9cm. This was not seen on my scan 12 days ago. I don't like how fast it popped up or how big it is. Idk how to feel, tbh. I just can't wrap my mind around everything being ok while bleeding. I know it can be, and has been for many, but it's just so hard to imagine. I was just telling my gf today that I can't see myself with another child. Idk if it's just me and the way I brace myself for bad things to happen...Idk. I guess it's just a lot to process right now. The bleeding has slowed to only being there when I wipe, and baby is still thumping away like nothing is happening, so I guess I should just be happy. After all, it can always be so much worse!
Not the greatest update but it's better than the one I thought it would be this am.
Hope ur all having a better Monday than I am! =))
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Trip to the ER *lotsa tmi*
By dakotagurrl » Posted Mar. 7, 2016 8:21pm - 1869 views - 18 comments
What a week...fuck that, what a day! Ok quick rundown. Every Sunday marks a new week. This is going strictly off lmp. Ok so as of last Sunday am (9wks), I've had brown ccm but only a small amount, max 1/4 tsp/day and only after a poop. I don't even slightly struggle to poop so this isn't something I'm pushing out, it's more or less being brought along for the ride. About the middle of the week it switched to a caramel colour and more of an ewcm. Again, less than 1/4 tsp/day. Not enough to panic but enough to not feel secure anymore...despite the doppler.
Anyways, I jumped in the shower this am (10+1), maybe 10mins into shaving, I see a stream of bright red blood run down my left leg. I instantly thought I cut myself. Sometimes it happens and u just don't feel it....well, I don't anyways. So I bend down to see which poor part got the slice this week, none of em. I saw a faucet of red pouring out of my vag. It looked like the shower was running down my back and making it more than it was, but the shower was off. Instant panic and tears. I literally froze and stared in awe. There was so much blood and zero indication that it was gonna happen. I was truly shocked! I got out and sat on the bathroom floor losing Idk how much blood while my tear-filled eyes and shaky hands struggled to aim the probe to find a HB. It took what seemed like forever, but was really only a few seconds, and I found it. Hearing that strong, fast thumping, gave me the strength to pick my ass up, reshower and tidy up the bloody mess I left behind before heading to the ER for some answers.
The ER RN'S were awesome. They had blood drawn and me into a scan within an hour of getting through the waiting room doors...the waiting area was a diff story, smfh. The U/S tech was a doll too. She told me straight up that she couldn't discuss anything with me becuz it was emergent, which I expected. But she did leave the screen ever so slightly turned so I could see there was a wiggly baby in there, and she whispered "there's a HB, it's 174" and smiled. We didn't discuss anything further tho. About 30mins after the scan my results were back and the RN came to tell me.
Gestational sac measures 5.42cm with a single live fetus with a CRL of 3.99cm measuring 10+6 and a FHR of 174. So that's good! The subchorionic hemorrhage is deemed large and measures 6.0 x 7.0 x 2.9cm. This was not seen on my scan 12 days ago. I don't like how fast it popped up or how big it is. Idk how to feel, tbh. I just can't wrap my mind around everything being ok while bleeding. I know it can be, and has been for many, but it's just so hard to imagine. I was just telling my gf today that I can't see myself with another child. Idk if it's just me and the way I brace myself for bad things to happen...Idk. I guess it's just a lot to process right now. The bleeding has slowed to only being there when I wipe, and baby is still thumping away like nothing is happening, so I guess I should just be happy. After all, it can always be so much worse!
Not the greatest update but it's better than the one I thought it would be this am.
Hope ur all having a better Monday than I am! =))
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from ShirlyWhirl » Posted Mar. 17, 2016 6:49am Thats great to hear! Keep me posted! |
 | Comment from dakotagurrl » Posted Mar. 16, 2016 9:12am Doing good so far, thanks! Baby is still chillin'! Bleeding bounces between only when I wipe, to small/medium gushes and back to brown cm again. Nothing has been bright red, all brown or maroon. I am starting to pass small clots, but they're like long and stringy, not blobs. Really hoping this thing is bleeding itself out. I have an appt with my OB on Tues so we'll see what he has to say. I should be getting my NT scan done in the next cpl weeks as well. Other than the bleeding thing, I feel 110% normal and great...I really can't complain! =)) |
| Comment from ShirlyWhirl » Posted Mar. 15, 2016 9:33am How are you feeling now? |
 | Comment from eat2nourish » Posted Mar. 14, 2016 12:27pm OMG! What a scare! Glad everything is going well now! Turtle to snails pace with little B...very cute. K. |
 | Comment from josamarie » Posted Mar. 13, 2016 10:10am Oh hun, I'm so sorry you had such a big scare! I'm glad everything is ok, but that's so hard still. Will be thinking of you and your healthy little bean, praying the sch clears up as quickly as it appeared! |
| Comment from dakotagurrl » Posted Mar. 11, 2016 7:49am Thanks, ladies! =)) Sailorswife, the entire day was one big worry. Doing much better now, it's back to being brown cm again. Baby's still thumpin' away in there. =)) |
 | Comment from Sailorswife » Posted Mar. 9, 2016 8:33pm When I first started to read this my heart absolutely sunk! So glad baby is OKAY!!!! |
 | Comment from RedBetty » Posted Mar. 9, 2016 6:33am Omg, that is so frightening. I'm glad baby is okay and you too. Stay safe lil one |
