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crying again
By Amarylis13 » Posted Aug. 15, 2014 10:52am - 713 views - 1 comment

I've had to cry twice this morning. I am so uncomfortable, nothing fits, I'm too hot, I feel like throwing up. My contacts hurt when I put them in. This pregnancy has been so much hell I hope I lose my uterus. I never want to do this again. Once again it's a small paycheck and I have to decide between bills or food. I'm so done. I hate life. I hate everything. I have no one to talk to. No one to understand. I don't even know if this baby is worth being called a "blessing"". Blessings don't make you cry yourself to sleep at night.

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Comment from mydarlingqueen » Posted Aug. 15, 2014 12:18pm Hormones are crazy crazy at this time. I was totally a big crying wreck as well yesterday. I just cried over everything, couldn't stop. I am completely tired of being pregnant and when I asked if they could sweep my membranes at the appointment yesterday they said they don't do that until 39 weeks! (I'm 37 and 5 days) I just started balling my eyes out, the thought of having to be pregnant for another 2 weeks is just killing me. Just keep pulling through, you can do this! So sorry about the small paycheck, I know how that goes- we usually only know small paychecks and most of our bills are paid in chunks and always have late fees because we didn't pay them in time. :/ If you need someone to rant to about things, you can message me :)