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My Due Date: June 17, 2018I am postpartum » My due date was more than 2 weeks ago
Age: 34 years old
Location: Gaborone, Botswana
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61 Days of Secrecy
By MamaMoey » Posted Oct. 13, 2017 6:20am - 472 views - 3 comments
Yesterday, in the middle of my work day I decided to POAS. I don't think my urine was that concentrated and I am a day late at 15 DPO so I don't know what I expected except another faint-ish BFP. The hypochondriac in me started a crusade of googling what consistent weak BFPs mean. I sat for an hour freaking out at my laptop monitor and wondering if I was on the road for another miscarriage.
In the end, I decided that HCG levels will rise on their own and that I will have a healthy, happy 9 months. I am going to think positive throughout this pregnancy, even if the negative happens. I am being proactive and have already booked appointments with two ob/gyns at the two best hospitals; I'll decide who to stick with. One of them is actually our 'family'ob/gyn and my mums doctor; she raves about the guy so I'm willing to check him out. The other guy comes highly recommended. So it's looking up. Also, I am super excited to be told all is going well. When you're a miscarriage survivor, any reassurance is a few extra nights of peaceful sleep.
I have now told my cousin and my closest friend. They'll accompany me to the first appointment so I wont be alone. SO has no idea, or so I think, I'll tell him on Christmas. Or maybe on my birthday next month, I'll be 10 weeks on the dot. The closer I am to 13 weeks the less I'll mind if he blabs to other people. I don't know, he gets so happy he forgets my history with miscarriages. I just don't need pity from strangers. I think I'll enjoy my fabulous secret on my own for now.
I am a drinker (wine is life) and a smoker. With my first, I quit as soon as the second line on the pregnancy test showed up. I'm doing the same for this little bean. I won't lie, it is much harder as everyone around me drinks and smokes. I'm becoming a recluse because the only way to avoid temptation is to just not be around people that smoke and drink. It's a small sacrifice to make.
I go back and forth on when to revel the pregnancy to SO but for now I have 61 Days left to 13 weeks. The days fly, some are slow but one thing is for sure, I am enjoying every moment of being pregnant.
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61 Days of Secrecy
By MamaMoey » Posted Oct. 13, 2017 6:20am - 472 views - 3 comments
Yesterday, in the middle of my work day I decided to POAS. I don't think my urine was that concentrated and I am a day late at 15 DPO so I don't know what I expected except another faint-ish BFP. The hypochondriac in me started a crusade of googling what consistent weak BFPs mean. I sat for an hour freaking out at my laptop monitor and wondering if I was on the road for another miscarriage.
In the end, I decided that HCG levels will rise on their own and that I will have a healthy, happy 9 months. I am going to think positive throughout this pregnancy, even if the negative happens. I am being proactive and have already booked appointments with two ob/gyns at the two best hospitals; I'll decide who to stick with. One of them is actually our 'family'ob/gyn and my mums doctor; she raves about the guy so I'm willing to check him out. The other guy comes highly recommended. So it's looking up. Also, I am super excited to be told all is going well. When you're a miscarriage survivor, any reassurance is a few extra nights of peaceful sleep.
I have now told my cousin and my closest friend. They'll accompany me to the first appointment so I wont be alone. SO has no idea, or so I think, I'll tell him on Christmas. Or maybe on my birthday next month, I'll be 10 weeks on the dot. The closer I am to 13 weeks the less I'll mind if he blabs to other people. I don't know, he gets so happy he forgets my history with miscarriages. I just don't need pity from strangers. I think I'll enjoy my fabulous secret on my own for now.
I am a drinker (wine is life) and a smoker. With my first, I quit as soon as the second line on the pregnancy test showed up. I'm doing the same for this little bean. I won't lie, it is much harder as everyone around me drinks and smokes. I'm becoming a recluse because the only way to avoid temptation is to just not be around people that smoke and drink. It's a small sacrifice to make.
I go back and forth on when to revel the pregnancy to SO but for now I have 61 Days left to 13 weeks. The days fly, some are slow but one thing is for sure, I am enjoying every moment of being pregnant.
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from Celenes_Mommy » Posted Oct. 18, 2017 7:13am Oh, I am. I'm even looking at pictures of the test in front of people hoping they see it over my shoulder so that they find out by "accident" lol. |
 | Comment from MamaMoey » Posted Oct. 18, 2017 6:08am I have an appointment in two weeks and I'll be 7weeks hoping I'll get to see a heartbeat! Bet your bursting at the seams to tell people, I know I am! |
| Comment from Celenes_Mommy » Posted Oct. 17, 2017 7:57pm You are a week ahead of me. Hubby, my MIL, and my 2 best friends know, but that is it. We won't wait until 12-14 weeks though, we just want to wait until the ultrasound and then we will tell the family. So until then at least... we are in this secret keeping business together... kinda. |
