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My Due Date: March 19, 2016I have given birth!
Age: 37 years old
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20 weeks! Half way there!
By proudmamaerica » Posted Nov. 3, 2015 5:22pm - 495 views - 5 comments
Haven't updated in a while... Had OB appt today. I'm now down 14lbs. Yikes. I thought for sure I would have gained at least a few pounds. I mean it's not like I'm thin... so I have some to lose but I only lost 10 with my second and had started gaining by this point. I hope noting is wrong with baby. :(
Her heart rate today was 135, I think she was sleeping. :) My fundal height measured for 24 weeks but doc wasn't concerned. I have my level 2 ultrasound in a week so if ya'll could say a few prayers that she's developing well and everything is good.
I also got my pre-admission paperwork today. Craziness. Also, if something were to happen like I start contracting or something I can go straight to L&D now and don't have to go to the ER. yay! I hate the ER. But hopefully I won't need to go until I'm full term obviously.
Baby girl moves a lot. Sometimes it even hurts. My girls and hubs have felt her on the outside and my girls were so excited! I still haven't gotten anything for her. :( I totally know this is morbid but I'm seriously surprised that I've made it another week each time. The innocence that I had with my girls' pregnancies just isn't there with this one because of the previous loss and it's making it hard for me to bond with her. :( I see all this cute stuff and I REALLY want to buy it for her... and I look at it...and touch it....and then I sigh and walk away. :( That's awful isn't it? I thought once I found out what she was it would help with the bonding but it has not. *sigh* I love her, I'm just afraid to get close to her for fear of losing her.
Well... until next time.... I hope everyone is well and your pregnancies are going well!
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20 weeks! Half way there!
By proudmamaerica » Posted Nov. 3, 2015 5:22pm - 495 views - 5 comments
Haven't updated in a while... Had OB appt today. I'm now down 14lbs. Yikes. I thought for sure I would have gained at least a few pounds. I mean it's not like I'm thin... so I have some to lose but I only lost 10 with my second and had started gaining by this point. I hope noting is wrong with baby. :(
Her heart rate today was 135, I think she was sleeping. :) My fundal height measured for 24 weeks but doc wasn't concerned. I have my level 2 ultrasound in a week so if ya'll could say a few prayers that she's developing well and everything is good.
I also got my pre-admission paperwork today. Craziness. Also, if something were to happen like I start contracting or something I can go straight to L&D now and don't have to go to the ER. yay! I hate the ER. But hopefully I won't need to go until I'm full term obviously.
Baby girl moves a lot. Sometimes it even hurts. My girls and hubs have felt her on the outside and my girls were so excited! I still haven't gotten anything for her. :( I totally know this is morbid but I'm seriously surprised that I've made it another week each time. The innocence that I had with my girls' pregnancies just isn't there with this one because of the previous loss and it's making it hard for me to bond with her. :( I see all this cute stuff and I REALLY want to buy it for her... and I look at it...and touch it....and then I sigh and walk away. :( That's awful isn't it? I thought once I found out what she was it would help with the bonding but it has not. *sigh* I love her, I'm just afraid to get close to her for fear of losing her.
Well... until next time.... I hope everyone is well and your pregnancies are going well!
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from HzlGreenEyes » Posted Nov. 4, 2015 10:52am Awesome news on your 20 weeks!! |
 | Comment from MalPal85 » Posted Nov. 4, 2015 9:22am Glad your appointment went well and good luck on your next one. I'm 33 weeks and I still get nervous. I had a loss before this one and it totally sucks. Every time I walk into my babies room I think to myself "I hope to God I actually get to use this stuff" (especially since having my shower) which is pretty morbid but I can't help it. I know it easier said than done but just try and relax and enjoy it :)! |
 | Comment from proudmamaerica » Posted Nov. 3, 2015 7:08pm Thanks girl! I have hypothyroid too. I'm always nervous about my levels. :/ |
 | Comment from Amanda_McDaniel » Posted Nov. 3, 2015 6:18pm I've been blessed to never experience a loss but I know what you mean about the loss of innocence. I've had brain surgery, hypothyroidism and a ton of endocrine issues so I am nervous everyday. I'm pretty morbid too. My husband has started updating my son's nursery furniture but I have done nothing else for the nursery... I'm nearly to viability (I'm 23 weeks today) so I'm hoping that point will make me feel more confident. Everything about my diseases just reminds me that I could encounter problems at any point and it has proven a bit of a barrier so I feel for you. |
| Comment from Amanda_McDaniel » Posted Nov. 3, 2015 6:18pm I've been blessed to never experience a loss but I know what you mean about the loss of innocence. I've had brain surgery, hypothyroidism and a ton of endocrine issues so I am nervous everyday. I'm pretty morbid too. My husband has started updating my son's nursery furniture but I have done nothing else for the nursery... I'm nearly to viability (I'm 23 weeks today) so I'm hoping that point will make me feel more confident. Everything about my diseases just reminds me that I could encounter problems at any point and it has proven a bit of a barrier so I feel for you. |
