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Here I am again... this time, overweight.
By JuneBrideCarter » Posted Nov. 19, 2013 5:17pm - 293 views - 0 comments
To say the least this pregnancy was.... unexpected.
I started a weight loss kick about 2 months ago, and was just starting to see some progress when my knees kinda screwed me over. They're tracking incorrectly, and the doc told me that the only exercises I was allowed for now were stationary bike and swimming.
Now I find out I'm still overweight, and suddenly pregnant again.
I haven't lost all the weight I gained from my last pregnancy, and now I have to gain even more?
It makes me upset.
I was so angry when I found out. I've been saving up for a silicone mermaid tail, and kicking trash trying to lose weight so I would look good in it.
I wanted to lose at least 15 more pounds before I got pregnant again.
Now, I've got to make an intermediary tail to wear while pregnant and post-partum, and I'll have even more weight to lose to fit into my silicone one.
I'm not as angry, anymore, though. I've gotten to the acceptance phase, now. But I'm also really scared now. I'm so super scared that I won't be able to get enough exercise while pregnant, and I'm scared that I'll gain too much again, and that I may never be a healthy weight again.
I'm scared of gestational diabetes, and preeclampsia, and hypertension.
It still makes me cry that I can't work out the way I was, and that I really wasn't ready to be pregnant again.
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Here I am again... this time, overweight.
By JuneBrideCarter » Posted Nov. 19, 2013 5:17pm - 293 views - 0 comments
To say the least this pregnancy was.... unexpected.
I started a weight loss kick about 2 months ago, and was just starting to see some progress when my knees kinda screwed me over. They're tracking incorrectly, and the doc told me that the only exercises I was allowed for now were stationary bike and swimming.
Now I find out I'm still overweight, and suddenly pregnant again.
I haven't lost all the weight I gained from my last pregnancy, and now I have to gain even more?
It makes me upset.
I was so angry when I found out. I've been saving up for a silicone mermaid tail, and kicking trash trying to lose weight so I would look good in it.
I wanted to lose at least 15 more pounds before I got pregnant again.
Now, I've got to make an intermediary tail to wear while pregnant and post-partum, and I'll have even more weight to lose to fit into my silicone one.
I'm not as angry, anymore, though. I've gotten to the acceptance phase, now. But I'm also really scared now. I'm so super scared that I won't be able to get enough exercise while pregnant, and I'm scared that I'll gain too much again, and that I may never be a healthy weight again.
I'm scared of gestational diabetes, and preeclampsia, and hypertension.
It still makes me cry that I can't work out the way I was, and that I really wasn't ready to be pregnant again.
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