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13 wks tomorrow & still worried... ugh
By dbrissette » Posted Jan. 7, 2015 12:39pm - 506 views - 4 comments

What is wrong with me. I am not bleeding, my symptoms are subsiding just as every "week by week" pregnancy website says. I'm having heart burn (again normal wk 12 pregnancy symptom) still feeling a little dizzy and sick to my stomach, mild headache, and cramping. All of this and yet I am still worried about a loss... I hate that I constantly have this fear lingering over me. I hate that I can't just enjoy this for what it is, a healthy pregnancy of 2 beautiful babies that I have waited for a really long time. My husband is understanding, but I think he is getting frustrated with my worries. he feels everything is fine and I'm allowing our past pregnancies tarnish this one.

I know that I have the grace of God with me. I know they are healthy and I ask God every day to protect my babies and help me banish these ideas of sorrow from my mind.

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	Comment from tjwjtw21 » Posted Jan. 8, 2015 3:54pm I found out at 8wks that I was expecting twins. Although I've not experienced a loss (only 1chemical), I'm a neonatal nurse. My worst fears all came rushing through as I know what can happen when babies come too soon. Then a few short days later I began bleeding and again at 12wks I was bleeding agin. It was the worst feeling ever! Around 14-15 wks symptoms began to diminish and I went crazy with emotions. It's a very tough road and you're entitled to your feelings. It does get better and there is light as it goes along! Hang in there!!! I'm 26w and change now. Both babies are doing great. I still have some worries but I'm dealing and I just keep in mind that He has a plan for me and I can only ask Him to make it the best it can be! We are here for you mama!!
	Comment from stickybean1976 » Posted Jan. 7, 2015 10:54pm Hey I'm nearly 25 w and I still worry and probably will until I hold her. For me this is what 4 losses after seeing heartbeats and 3 d&c surgeries dies to you. Please know the fear you experience you are not crazy and alone. I've had not one dot of blood this whole pregnancy and still every time I go to the toilet I still check. We can't change the way we feel after the kind of trauma that some of us have experienced. Oh and I believe if I was carrying twins I'd be the same as you. All you can do is your best to enjoy rekax and go with each day as it comes xx
	Comment from aubabylcd » Posted Jan. 7, 2015 2:49pm It's super hard after a loss or losses to enjoy a pregnancy! My recommendation would be to take some time every day to just sit with your hands on your belly and think happy thoughts for your babies and just feel the good energy! Hopefully it'll get better when you can really start feeling them move too! GL! And I totally can relate to the hubbs not understanding how you feel... just try to remain positive that this is it and envision them being here soon!
	Comment from mnor0406 » Posted Jan. 7, 2015 2:25pm I am right there with you! At 15 weeks I still have this underlying feeling of dread that something might still happen. I hate it too! I wish I could just enjoy being pregnant. I am hoping it goes away when I reach viability.