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Libelula264's Pregnancy

My Due Date: April 26, 2019
I have given birth!
Age: 39 years old
Location: Boston, United States

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9w5d - Gender, Nausea, Guilt
By Libelula264 » Posted Sep. 26, 2018 2:32pm - 347 views - 2 comments

It's been awhile since I posted an update, so here goes!

I had my first prenatal appointment a week ago, and all went well. I had an abdominal ultrasound and they easily found baby, healthy heartbeat and all. PHEW! This was the first time I've NOT been told I was miscarrying at my first appt. Pretty uneventful other than that, and I go back in a few weeks for my bloodwork/genetic testing. When I was 9 weeks by LMP, I did the Sneak Peek blood test and it came back BOY. I was put back a few days at my appt, so hopefully it was still correct (you're not supposed to do it before 9w). We'll get it confirmed with the upcoming bloodwork.

This pregnancy DRAAAAAGGED on before my first appt, but has seemed to fly by since then. Yes, it's only been a week since my appt, but still! I am already starting to show (thanks, lax abdominal muscles), and I'm feeling awkward about it since I'm going to wait to tell work until around 14 weeks when my genetic testing comes back.

Nausea has been worse this time around than in either of my other pregnancies, and this morning I threw up my prenatals before I could get food in. It's the first time I've actually vomited, and unpleasant to say the least. FX I am in the home stretch of 1st trimester awfulness.

Lastly, I've been battling some anxiety/depression lately. I'm feeling selfish for wanting a 3rd child, guilty that I got pregnant so easily at 36, and guilty that it looks like I'm still going to be someone who's never miscarried. I feel like I don't deserve it. I know this probably sounds pretty smug, but it's true nonetheless. Watch, something bad will happen now... Sigh. Time to stop rambling and get back to work.


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Comment from Libelula264 » Posted Sep. 26, 2018 2:54pm
Thanks so much... I needed to hear that. :)

Comment from calvingirl » Posted Sep. 26, 2018 2:50pm
From 9 to 15 weeks, I was really depressed and anxious. I think it's the surge of hormones during that time. You have nothing to feel guilty about. I'm very happy for you that your appt. went well. As for getting pregnant easily, a lot of women do. My sister gets pregnant at the drop of a hat - and she hates it. She has four living children, an infant loss, a few miscarriages and a termination and only one kidney that works only 50%. Getting pregnant again will kill her (hence the termination recommendation from her dr.). And here I am...3 yrs and tons of money and effort and fertility treatments later, I finally got an egg that stuck. Genetics are a funny thing. You deserve this baby and know that this feeling will pass...along with the nausea.

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