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My Due Date: July 25, 2014I have given birth!
Age: 52 years old
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I make a TERRIBLE pregnant person and I am hating myself.
By Elladezeng » Posted Dec. 3, 2013 7:51pm - 260 views - 2 comments
Due to my commute and work schedule, I am finding it very difficult to be the model pregnant person. Today, for example, I did not drink enough water (I was on the run all day long) and I had a bottle of soda (need the caffeine for my headache). Barely had any fruits and veggies, and today isn't the only day. I even forgot my prenatal vitamins once last week. I've been on them for 12 months.
I had my hair colored, and I painted a bedroom. Granted, I cleared the hair color with my doctor, and wore a respirator 80% of the time I painted with low or no VOC paint (windows open the whole time), but I feel guilty and horrid for doing these things at such a vulnerable time. I even had about 1 ounce of wine at Thanksgiving just to keep the family at bay until mid December when we do the pregnancy reveal.
I already have everything going against having a healthy baby because of my "geriatric" age. And I am just adding insult to injury. On that note, I think I had a few Excedrin migraines, and some Sudafed's before I even knew I was pregnant. There has to be a special circle in hell just for me.
Also, is it wrong to be having second thoughts about this whole baby thing? I mean, I HAD to try to become a mom otherwise I just KNOW I would always regret it and it would be a big problem for me in the long run if I never had the opportunity to raise a child. I guess I just answered my own question.
Thanks for listening. Please no harsh judging. If you are inclined to do so, please know that my mother will do enough of that for a thousand people so there is no need.
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I make a TERRIBLE pregnant person and I am hating myself.
By Elladezeng » Posted Dec. 3, 2013 7:51pm - 260 views - 2 comments
Due to my commute and work schedule, I am finding it very difficult to be the model pregnant person. Today, for example, I did not drink enough water (I was on the run all day long) and I had a bottle of soda (need the caffeine for my headache). Barely had any fruits and veggies, and today isn't the only day. I even forgot my prenatal vitamins once last week. I've been on them for 12 months.
I had my hair colored, and I painted a bedroom. Granted, I cleared the hair color with my doctor, and wore a respirator 80% of the time I painted with low or no VOC paint (windows open the whole time), but I feel guilty and horrid for doing these things at such a vulnerable time. I even had about 1 ounce of wine at Thanksgiving just to keep the family at bay until mid December when we do the pregnancy reveal.
I already have everything going against having a healthy baby because of my "geriatric" age. And I am just adding insult to injury. On that note, I think I had a few Excedrin migraines, and some Sudafed's before I even knew I was pregnant. There has to be a special circle in hell just for me.
Also, is it wrong to be having second thoughts about this whole baby thing? I mean, I HAD to try to become a mom otherwise I just KNOW I would always regret it and it would be a big problem for me in the long run if I never had the opportunity to raise a child. I guess I just answered my own question.
Thanks for listening. Please no harsh judging. If you are inclined to do so, please know that my mother will do enough of that for a thousand people so there is no need.
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from mrsamanda » Posted Dec. 4, 2013 10:23am Don't worry! Think of all the past pregnant women who didn't have all this fancy technology and Dr. Google to tell them what was right or wrong. And all their kids were born perfectly fine and dandy. Don't worry about the Sudafed. I believe it is okay to take that. When I first found out I was pregnant, my doctor said I could take Sudafed for my terrible cold symptoms. I LOVE sushi too. I've been just ordering California Rolls to be safe and get my sushi fill. Talking about it just makes me want it more!! Ahh, thanks a lot! ;) |
 | Comment from jennavee » Posted Dec. 4, 2013 9:59am I had a glass of wine at Thanksgiving also! With my first baby, I had a 4 oz. glass maybe once every week or two. Don't feel bad! I also painted his nursery while I was like 30 weeks pregnant, dyed my hair, went on a very mild roller coaster at Disneyworld and ate sushi (it was from the "cooked" sushi menu, then the waiter told me it had raw garnish AFTER I'd already taken a bite!). Anyway, the point of my story is that you shouldn't feel guilty. I wouldn't make these things habitual, but having an off day or two is not going to hurt you or the baby! I just tell myself "oops....do better next time!" and don't dwell on it! |
