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My Due Date: October 12, 2013I am postpartum » My due date was more than 2 weeks ago
Age: 32 years old
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Positive Test Equals Positive Thoughts, Right?
By HotMessMommy » Posted Feb. 14, 2013 12:53pm - 234 views - 2 comments
First pregnancy journal entry! So almost a week ago, the home pregnancy tests came back positive, or as I put it, they had "TWO lines". I honestly couldn't tell you my first thoughts in regards to being pregnant, because I had so many emotions flow through me all at once in that moment! The one thing I do remember was lots of tears, between me & Jose both. Who would have thought that missing a few birth control pills could result in a pregnancy so quickly? I mean, there are soo many couples who spend hundreds of thousands of dollars on attempting to get pregnant, but just a forgetful me + horny Jose = knocked up, like *THAT*. Please don't get me wrong, the only thing I've ever wanted in life was to be a mother, but in my "motherhood plan" in this coo coo head of mine, I had my own house, own car, safe career, and more financial stability in my life. But hey, life's got quite a sense of humor I suppose!
Now, obviously not being able to afford our own home plus bringing a new baby into our lives is certainly overwhelming and quite irresponsible, but for some reason, I'm extremely happy and calm about this pregnancy. Jose and I both have our negative thoughts about it, but right now we're both content with the idea of creating a little "us" (& working our asses off to support this little bundle of joy for the rest of our lives) Right now, my mind & emotions are all over the place. One minute I'm super excited about being pregnant and worry-free about the extreme difficulties we're going to face soon enough, then the next I'm hysterically crying, freaking out about everything that could possibly go wrong. This is way more intense then my typical bipolar mood swings!
Considering I'm only 5 weeks & 5 days pregnant, I shouldn't even be on these websites yet or getting my panties in a bunch over stupid things, but after the "I-just-turned-21-and-now-I-have-to-give-up-alcohol-and-everything-fun-because-I'm-pregnant" state of mind passed, my thoughts on a new baby became utter joy & excitement! I'm overly curious about every detail of being pregnant, and since my first prenatal appointment isn't until March 11, I use these pregnancy websites & apps for my discovery.
Everything happens for a reason in my opinion. I'm only slightly aware of the hardships Jose & I are about to face, but I've never had a "normal" life that followed a plan...so why would God change that now? Instead of focusing on the so many negatives this pregnancy & baby will bring, I'm following my pregnancy tests and thinking POSITIVE! Here's a non-alcoholic cheers to this new, pregnant chapter in my crazy, inappropriate life!
xox S
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Positive Test Equals Positive Thoughts, Right?
By HotMessMommy » Posted Feb. 14, 2013 12:53pm - 234 views - 2 comments
First pregnancy journal entry! So almost a week ago, the home pregnancy tests came back positive, or as I put it, they had "TWO lines". I honestly couldn't tell you my first thoughts in regards to being pregnant, because I had so many emotions flow through me all at once in that moment! The one thing I do remember was lots of tears, between me & Jose both. Who would have thought that missing a few birth control pills could result in a pregnancy so quickly? I mean, there are soo many couples who spend hundreds of thousands of dollars on attempting to get pregnant, but just a forgetful me + horny Jose = knocked up, like *THAT*. Please don't get me wrong, the only thing I've ever wanted in life was to be a mother, but in my "motherhood plan" in this coo coo head of mine, I had my own house, own car, safe career, and more financial stability in my life. But hey, life's got quite a sense of humor I suppose!
Now, obviously not being able to afford our own home plus bringing a new baby into our lives is certainly overwhelming and quite irresponsible, but for some reason, I'm extremely happy and calm about this pregnancy. Jose and I both have our negative thoughts about it, but right now we're both content with the idea of creating a little "us" (& working our asses off to support this little bundle of joy for the rest of our lives) Right now, my mind & emotions are all over the place. One minute I'm super excited about being pregnant and worry-free about the extreme difficulties we're going to face soon enough, then the next I'm hysterically crying, freaking out about everything that could possibly go wrong. This is way more intense then my typical bipolar mood swings!
Considering I'm only 5 weeks & 5 days pregnant, I shouldn't even be on these websites yet or getting my panties in a bunch over stupid things, but after the "I-just-turned-21-and-now-I-have-to-give-up-alcohol-and-everything-fun-because-I'm-pregnant" state of mind passed, my thoughts on a new baby became utter joy & excitement! I'm overly curious about every detail of being pregnant, and since my first prenatal appointment isn't until March 11, I use these pregnancy websites & apps for my discovery.
Everything happens for a reason in my opinion. I'm only slightly aware of the hardships Jose & I are about to face, but I've never had a "normal" life that followed a plan...so why would God change that now? Instead of focusing on the so many negatives this pregnancy & baby will bring, I'm following my pregnancy tests and thinking POSITIVE! Here's a non-alcoholic cheers to this new, pregnant chapter in my crazy, inappropriate life!
xox S
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from HotMessMommy » Posted Feb. 15, 2013 3:09pm Aww, thanks! |
 | Comment from BabyMoore13 » Posted Feb. 14, 2013 1:18pm Love it! Congrats |
