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My Due Date: October 12, 2013I am postpartum » My due date was more than 2 weeks ago
Age: 32 years old
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Happy 6 Weeks!
By HotMessMommy » Posted Feb. 16, 2013 9:44pm - 181 views - 0 comments
Today was a weird, but still good day to say the least. I slept (once again) absolutely terrible last night, but for some reason I woke up pretty energized today...at least more energized than I've been feeling lol. Since I moved back in with my mom, she's picked up on every detail of my life, including the fact that I never opened the box of tampons I bought a few weeks ago. Soooo this morning she found out she's gonna be a grandma...here's how the brief, awkward encounter went:
Mom- "I noticed your tampon box hasn't been opened yet. You still haven't gotten your period?"
Me- "Nope, not yet."
Mom- "Why not? You're not pregnant, are you?"
Me- "Uh....yes..." (w/o the ability to make eye contact at this point)
Mom- "Yes, you KNOW you are or yes, you THINK you are?"
Me- "I know I am..."
Mom- "Ugh! Really? That's the last thing you need right now..."
Me- "I know. Let's just not talk about it anymore, ok? Just ignore it for now."
Little does she know that I was actually really excited about being pregnant, but now I feel stuck because she clearly doesn't approve. I mean, who can blame her? My husband and I temporarily moved back into her house for February due to our old place being infested with mice, bed bugs, and random other animals running through the house pooping everywhere (yuckyuckyuck! dirty roomates!). And on top of that, I haven't been able to find a job recently so money is super tight just between Jose & I. So, I completely understand where she's coming from with the whole "guilt trip" thing going on (and that is most likely going to continue for the next 7-8 months) BUTTTTTT...I need to stop stressing right now.
I also told one of my closest friends I was pregnant, over the phone. It felt really good to actually be supported with my surprise pregnancy, and to also let my secret out. I want to wait until after the first trimester to tell anyone else because of the high miscarriage risk (I don't even wanna think about that...!). I really miss my friends, especially her. A lot of my most trustworthy & supportive friends are away at college or moved too far for really frequent visits. Thank God for texting & Facebook!
Jose & my mom got drunk today in front of me, and I surprisingly didn't mind too much. I had a glass of light fruit punch, and the sweetness kinda eased my desire for alcohol. I still had a really fun time with them...maybe this sober fun thing won't be as hard as I thought after all. However, I still want a cigarette soooo bad...that's the really frustrating part!
Luckily I was in a really good mood (overall) today. Not too many problematic symptoms. Although, I'm starting to get a little concerned with this crampy-kinda pain in my lower abdomen & ovaries. I read a few things about other 5-7 week pregnant women experiencing similar pains, but it still worries me. No bleeding or anything, so I'm just monitoring the pain intensity & length for now, and so far it doesn't last long enough or hurt enough for me to be heading to the ER.
Okie dokie. Time to enjoy some well-deserved sleep! Here's another non-alcoholic, fruit-punch-flavored cheers to this new (pregnant) chapter in my crazy, inappropriate life!
xox S
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Happy 6 Weeks!
By HotMessMommy » Posted Feb. 16, 2013 9:44pm - 181 views - 0 comments
Today was a weird, but still good day to say the least. I slept (once again) absolutely terrible last night, but for some reason I woke up pretty energized today...at least more energized than I've been feeling lol. Since I moved back in with my mom, she's picked up on every detail of my life, including the fact that I never opened the box of tampons I bought a few weeks ago. Soooo this morning she found out she's gonna be a grandma...here's how the brief, awkward encounter went:
Mom- "I noticed your tampon box hasn't been opened yet. You still haven't gotten your period?"
Me- "Nope, not yet."
Mom- "Why not? You're not pregnant, are you?"
Me- "Uh....yes..." (w/o the ability to make eye contact at this point)
Mom- "Yes, you KNOW you are or yes, you THINK you are?"
Me- "I know I am..."
Mom- "Ugh! Really? That's the last thing you need right now..."
Me- "I know. Let's just not talk about it anymore, ok? Just ignore it for now."
Little does she know that I was actually really excited about being pregnant, but now I feel stuck because she clearly doesn't approve. I mean, who can blame her? My husband and I temporarily moved back into her house for February due to our old place being infested with mice, bed bugs, and random other animals running through the house pooping everywhere (yuckyuckyuck! dirty roomates!). And on top of that, I haven't been able to find a job recently so money is super tight just between Jose & I. So, I completely understand where she's coming from with the whole "guilt trip" thing going on (and that is most likely going to continue for the next 7-8 months) BUTTTTTT...I need to stop stressing right now.
I also told one of my closest friends I was pregnant, over the phone. It felt really good to actually be supported with my surprise pregnancy, and to also let my secret out. I want to wait until after the first trimester to tell anyone else because of the high miscarriage risk (I don't even wanna think about that...!). I really miss my friends, especially her. A lot of my most trustworthy & supportive friends are away at college or moved too far for really frequent visits. Thank God for texting & Facebook!
Jose & my mom got drunk today in front of me, and I surprisingly didn't mind too much. I had a glass of light fruit punch, and the sweetness kinda eased my desire for alcohol. I still had a really fun time with them...maybe this sober fun thing won't be as hard as I thought after all. However, I still want a cigarette soooo bad...that's the really frustrating part!
Luckily I was in a really good mood (overall) today. Not too many problematic symptoms. Although, I'm starting to get a little concerned with this crampy-kinda pain in my lower abdomen & ovaries. I read a few things about other 5-7 week pregnant women experiencing similar pains, but it still worries me. No bleeding or anything, so I'm just monitoring the pain intensity & length for now, and so far it doesn't last long enough or hurt enough for me to be heading to the ER.
Okie dokie. Time to enjoy some well-deserved sleep! Here's another non-alcoholic, fruit-punch-flavored cheers to this new (pregnant) chapter in my crazy, inappropriate life!
xox S
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