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My Due Date: I suffered a pregnancy lossAge: 39 years old
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And just like that, it's over.
By FutureBabyH » Posted Aug. 22, 2013 5:59pm - 456 views - 6 comments
It started in the middle of the night when I woke up from NOT feeling the butterflies/twinges/cramps. When I got up to start work (two hours earlier than normal), I told DH something just didn't feel right. After lunch I saw the tiny bits of bright red blood when I wiped, and I knew it was over. I took another HPT, and it came out as "Not Pregnant". I called the OB, took the blood test, and later found out my hCG was a mere 16.
Sadly, this is not our first loss.
My new OBGYN still wants to see me though, and she's determined to help us. So, I'll be back, and next time that little "nugget" is going to stick (even if I have to superglue it to my uterus!)!
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And just like that, it's over.
By FutureBabyH » Posted Aug. 22, 2013 5:59pm - 456 views - 6 comments
It started in the middle of the night when I woke up from NOT feeling the butterflies/twinges/cramps. When I got up to start work (two hours earlier than normal), I told DH something just didn't feel right. After lunch I saw the tiny bits of bright red blood when I wiped, and I knew it was over. I took another HPT, and it came out as "Not Pregnant". I called the OB, took the blood test, and later found out my hCG was a mere 16.
Sadly, this is not our first loss.
My new OBGYN still wants to see me though, and she's determined to help us. So, I'll be back, and next time that little "nugget" is going to stick (even if I have to superglue it to my uterus!)!
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 | Comment from cheaperbydozen » Posted Aug. 23, 2013 5:55am sorry for your lose, thoughts are with you at this sad time |
 | Comment from FutureBabyH » Posted Aug. 23, 2013 12:07am I'm really starting to wonder if I'll ever be able to "hold on" to a li'l nugget. We've had two prior chemical pregnancies, and now this MC. I have PCOS, so it's practically a miracle we've even gotten pregnant! Hopefully with a new MD now, we can work on a plan. I really wanted to get pregnant naturally, but I have a feeling that's not going to be part of the plan. Thanks so much for the kind words, prayers, and encouragement. I like to put on a tough bravado, but seriously, I bawled in the shower for an hour, just so DH wouldn't hear me. Pretty sure I didn't fool him though, when I got out, he had fallen asleep against the door. At least we have each other, I could not find a better partner. I'm so lucky to have him, and lucky that he still tolerates me after all this time. He's a total dream. :) |
| Comment from MeeWeee » Posted Aug. 22, 2013 11:55pm So terribly sorry for your loss. It is heart breaking. I second Rhid78's comment. Be with the ones you love. Let them comfort and support you. No one really knows what it's like until you have been through it yourself. It may take time to heal, but hoping you find peace in time, and your DR knows exactly how to help you. You are in my prayers x |
 | Comment from Rhid78 » Posted Aug. 22, 2013 8:19pm I'm so sorry for your loss :-( - I lost my little one just shy of 3 weeks ago, first loss for me & devastating beyond words. Surround yourself with wonderful, supportive people & just look after yourself xo |
 | Comment from moodymommy » Posted Aug. 22, 2013 6:50pm Its really tough going through that I know. Everything will get better I assure you. Sometimes God knows best. I know its heartbreaking but I know everything will be okay. (: I really hope you get to feeling better. God will be with you through this hard time. |
| Comment from Hudson » Posted Aug. 22, 2013 6:15pm So sorry for your loss. You are a very strong person given your positive outlook and determination in this tough situation. God bless you. See you again soon. |
