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Ugly thoughts in my head
By chehowca » Posted Jun. 5, 2014 9:45am - 333 views - 3 comments

I am almost afraid and ashamed to admit this. My baby flipped breech last weekend after being head down for a good few weeks. I was angry. I was angry at this little thing inside of me. Why? Because breech where I am means automatic c-section. I am so scared of surgery, the recovery and pain that is involved. I'm scared I will blame the baby, that I will reject the baby, that I won't bond with the baby because of the terror and pain involved. They are ugly thoughts. I know. I'm talking to someone about them... apparently they are normal though. Bleh.

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	Comment from lyssa7872 » Posted Jun. 5, 2014 6:44pm I had an emergency c section and really...it was great in the end. They give you meds for the pain and you don't have to worry about getting stitches up the hooha. It'll all work out for the best - you get a baby :)
	Comment from BabyClaire11 » Posted Jun. 5, 2014 12:24pm My daughter was breech for my whole pregnancy up until about 27 weeks i think.. i was so ANGRY that she was breech because of the same reasons you are. The pain, the trauma of it all, the recovery time being SO much worse. And that my birth plan now had to be switched up because i have a stubborn baby. BUT. i also had to remind myself that there was still a chance she'd turn on her own! You still have time!! there are things you can do to help the baby get back in to position. Look them up on the internet- and try EVERY ONE of them. One of them is bound to work. And if it doesn't- try not to be mad at your baby- it doesn't know any better, and regardless of the pain, you're still going to love your baby as soon as it comes out. Good luck hun, stay strong xx
	Comment from Sianny » Posted Jun. 5, 2014 10:03am These feelungs are something that comes to many woman during and after pregnancy. You still have a few weeks for baby to do more flips and turns before the big event. My son was back to back for the whole first stage of my labour and they were telling me how difficult it was going to be to push him out but when it came to pushing he turned around just as I started to bare down. Sure c sections are an inconvenience when it comes to caring for your new born but the pain after is a lot more manageable then labour pains. It's only natural to be concerned about surgery but it's something that's performed on hundreds of women every hour all over the world. x take care x