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My Due Date: September 21, 2014I have given birth!
Age: 31 years old
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Growing a human sucks, and is making me feel like a failure.
By lyssa7872 » Posted Aug. 18, 2014 12:05pm - 274 views - 0 comments
Last night I got contractions that made me feel like walking, and moving around. Couldn't get through them sitting down very well. They wrapped around my back and wouldn't go away, even though I'd been laying down and drinking water. We went to the hospital and STILL no dilation. Everything was right on where it should be for 35 weeks. So now the new thing is don't go in unless my water breaks or I can't even talk thru the contractions. The ones last night were painful, I couldn't do math thru them or concentrate lol.
UGGGH I just want my body to do it's job. I'm not supposed to have contractions that don't go away, but don't dilate. I'm not supposed to still be vomiting every day. It's just not the normal, and it makes me feel like a failure because one part of my body is trying to kick this baby out - my uterus, but the other part won't do it's job, just like it didn't with aryn - my cervix. And no one really understands. My husband doesn't get why I feel like a failure, but it's like if something wasn't working with his penis. It's kind of a major thing. My whole life all I've wanted "to do" is be a mom and a wife, and now my body sucks at being a mom. It is taking a toll on my sanity for sure :/
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Growing a human sucks, and is making me feel like a failure.
By lyssa7872 » Posted Aug. 18, 2014 12:05pm - 274 views - 0 comments
Last night I got contractions that made me feel like walking, and moving around. Couldn't get through them sitting down very well. They wrapped around my back and wouldn't go away, even though I'd been laying down and drinking water. We went to the hospital and STILL no dilation. Everything was right on where it should be for 35 weeks. So now the new thing is don't go in unless my water breaks or I can't even talk thru the contractions. The ones last night were painful, I couldn't do math thru them or concentrate lol.
UGGGH I just want my body to do it's job. I'm not supposed to have contractions that don't go away, but don't dilate. I'm not supposed to still be vomiting every day. It's just not the normal, and it makes me feel like a failure because one part of my body is trying to kick this baby out - my uterus, but the other part won't do it's job, just like it didn't with aryn - my cervix. And no one really understands. My husband doesn't get why I feel like a failure, but it's like if something wasn't working with his penis. It's kind of a major thing. My whole life all I've wanted "to do" is be a mom and a wife, and now my body sucks at being a mom. It is taking a toll on my sanity for sure :/
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