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Bah Humbug!
By Amanda_McDaniel » Posted Dec. 4, 2015 5:13pm - 247 views - 1 comment
Am I the only one who feels like a total Scrooge this holiday season? I know the real reason for the season, believe me, but the military picked one hell of a time to have budget troubles... Without that extra $400 a month, especially when we're preparing for my sweet Sebastian's birthday as well as Christmas. I make such a huge deal out of my boy's party every year and I was already cutting corners just from being tired but now I'm also selling everything that's not nailed down in our house to still try to make it special. Then we barely got him covered for Christmas this year, almost completely ignoring my husband and everyone else who means anything to us in life. I know they'll understand and DeWayne and I can do a bit of spoiling of ourselves at tax time but it's little comfort. Why the hell do we work so hard to still always feel like we're coming up short?? We're certainly not living beyond our means with one family car, a house we pay $600 a month to own, and only one child (as of right now). I know I'm just having a pity party but, damn it, it's pissing me off and killing my spirit. Then my parents picked last night to corner me once again about my ill feelings regarding my brother's home wrecking wife, the night before the three month anniversary of my brother's passing. They've been living with my folks in my childhood home for over a month now and she has them completely snowed. She has filled their heads with tales about her awful upbringing, how they are the ideal of what she wants her marriage to be (I love my parents but no... just no), and agrees with absolutely every ridiculous thing that escapes my father's mouth, most of which is a bit farfetched on his favorite topics (politics, religion, drug use, etc.). This has totally made them forget that she cheated with my brother while he was still married, she got pregnant and didn't see a doctor for seven months while, I suspect, doing drugs, as well as getting married the same day they found my brother dead in his chair because, scared the widow would immediately put them out of her house, my father won't permit unmarried adults to live together under his roof... Please keep in mind that I'm not ugly to this girl, I just choose to avoid her and keep her away from my precious little family. Yeah, so after being totally ambushed by unfounded arguments against my character, I then had to convince my husband not to make it worse out of anger (they won't ever do that type of thing when he's there to have my back). By the time I went to bed, the stress had completely torn up my stomach and I was up all night. It has made for a very active Caroline today though... She seems determined to pummel my various organs into submission.
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Bah Humbug!
By Amanda_McDaniel » Posted Dec. 4, 2015 5:13pm - 247 views - 1 comment
Am I the only one who feels like a total Scrooge this holiday season? I know the real reason for the season, believe me, but the military picked one hell of a time to have budget troubles... Without that extra $400 a month, especially when we're preparing for my sweet Sebastian's birthday as well as Christmas. I make such a huge deal out of my boy's party every year and I was already cutting corners just from being tired but now I'm also selling everything that's not nailed down in our house to still try to make it special. Then we barely got him covered for Christmas this year, almost completely ignoring my husband and everyone else who means anything to us in life. I know they'll understand and DeWayne and I can do a bit of spoiling of ourselves at tax time but it's little comfort. Why the hell do we work so hard to still always feel like we're coming up short?? We're certainly not living beyond our means with one family car, a house we pay $600 a month to own, and only one child (as of right now). I know I'm just having a pity party but, damn it, it's pissing me off and killing my spirit. Then my parents picked last night to corner me once again about my ill feelings regarding my brother's home wrecking wife, the night before the three month anniversary of my brother's passing. They've been living with my folks in my childhood home for over a month now and she has them completely snowed. She has filled their heads with tales about her awful upbringing, how they are the ideal of what she wants her marriage to be (I love my parents but no... just no), and agrees with absolutely every ridiculous thing that escapes my father's mouth, most of which is a bit farfetched on his favorite topics (politics, religion, drug use, etc.). This has totally made them forget that she cheated with my brother while he was still married, she got pregnant and didn't see a doctor for seven months while, I suspect, doing drugs, as well as getting married the same day they found my brother dead in his chair because, scared the widow would immediately put them out of her house, my father won't permit unmarried adults to live together under his roof... Please keep in mind that I'm not ugly to this girl, I just choose to avoid her and keep her away from my precious little family. Yeah, so after being totally ambushed by unfounded arguments against my character, I then had to convince my husband not to make it worse out of anger (they won't ever do that type of thing when he's there to have my back). By the time I went to bed, the stress had completely torn up my stomach and I was up all night. It has made for a very active Caroline today though... She seems determined to pummel my various organs into submission.
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 | Comment from Kate0406 » Posted Dec. 5, 2015 5:35pm We find it hard to financially too. This Christmas seems like we have no money and on top of that we are having to buy stuff for baby who can make his appearance next month. So husband and I are doing without. I remember when the Air Force pay got us by but it seems like now we have $20 or sometimes nothing in our account by pay time. It's horrible. I hope things get better for you. I'm thankful that my dad in law is going to buy Christmas presents for our boys and a much needed swing for our unborn son. |
