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My Due Date: March 1, 2016I have given birth!
Age: 37 years old
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Not Just a Song... *Update
By Amanda_McDaniel » Posted Feb. 17, 2016 2:20pm - 372 views - 2 comments
One step forward and two steps back! I swear, it’s like my first pregnancy all over again…
Yesterday I had my 38 week checkup and had prayed for some kind of sign one way or another about how this thing is going to go. I can absolutely handle almost anything delivery throws at me but I’ll be less emotionally drained to deal if I have some notice. So I went to my appointment with a hopeful heart and, despite being kept waiting for an hour after my appointment time, was thrilled to hear her say my cervix felt like it was thinning. Thank you, sweet Jesus! But then she dropped the bomb that she couldn’t feel Caroline’s head so she wanted to do a quick ultrasound. Sure enough, my little love bug has once again flipped into a breech position. *Sigh* I voiced that I had already become familiar with the flipping exercises and I would just plan to spend the next week hanging upside down like a bat and she felt the need to tell me that it’s getting tight in there so it may not help. Yes, thank you, Captain Helpful; now you decide to become an oversharer… I really tried to keep my head in front of my mom and son but I was so frustrated on the inside. Luckily, this is my last child so I never have to fret about this again. My kids are making it easier and easier to bid farewell to this phase of my life. But I see Dr. Bryant (the doctor scheduled to do my cesarean as well as the one who told me I was pregnant way back in June) on Tuesday. We’re supposed to discuss my surgery along with my usual checkup but I hope he’ll have good news for me about baby both flipping head-down and my cervix continuing to thin/dilate. If not, he may want to move up my surgery to beat her into the birth canal. I don’t recall if they do breech births or not but I know it comes with a risk of hip dysplasia among other risks. At that point, if nothing is going in my favor any longer, there’s really no point in waiting another week, is there? I’d much more prefer a February baby so this may very well be my last full week with only one child. Just in case, I’m going to try to enjoy not being on newborn duty while it lasts. I’m going on Friday to get a much-needed haircut, I’m going to do my nails (make DeWayne do my toes since I can no longer reach them) and just try to get some rest. Sebastian is out of school this week and, while it’s a bit overwhelming, I’m doing my best to spend all our time together since he may feel a bit shuffled soon. Even though I know it could be a lot worse and I’m thankful that I can grow my own children, I’m ready for this all to be over. I want my body back and my baby in my arms (where she can no longer wreak havoc on me physically *Chuckle*).
But I see a similarity in my pregnancies because, after going into the hospital to be induced with Bash, I was absolutely terrified by the idea of having to have a cesarean and prayed my heart out that I’d see dilation. If I could just see progress, I wouldn’t complain about a long labor or pain. Long story short, I dilated to seven centimeters but he just couldn’t come. Because I was scared and stubborn, I spent 36 pointless hours in labor and only gave in to the surgery suggestion when my baby start to distress. I’m sitting here looking for signs again but I guess I’ll take the hint this time. I suppose we’ll know on Tuesday. DeWayne will have to go with me this time because, even acting like a grownup, his reassurance helps soothe my disappointment (yes, I am preparing for the worst…). At least baby girl is healthy and still active.
*Update: The hospital just called and they only have one Cesarean slot open before my due date. So, if Caroline doesn't flip by Tuesday, we'll be having our baby girl on Thursday the 25th at 7:30 a.m. Trying not to be too disappointed...
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Not Just a Song... *Update
By Amanda_McDaniel » Posted Feb. 17, 2016 2:20pm - 372 views - 2 comments
One step forward and two steps back! I swear, it’s like my first pregnancy all over again…
Yesterday I had my 38 week checkup and had prayed for some kind of sign one way or another about how this thing is going to go. I can absolutely handle almost anything delivery throws at me but I’ll be less emotionally drained to deal if I have some notice. So I went to my appointment with a hopeful heart and, despite being kept waiting for an hour after my appointment time, was thrilled to hear her say my cervix felt like it was thinning. Thank you, sweet Jesus! But then she dropped the bomb that she couldn’t feel Caroline’s head so she wanted to do a quick ultrasound. Sure enough, my little love bug has once again flipped into a breech position. *Sigh* I voiced that I had already become familiar with the flipping exercises and I would just plan to spend the next week hanging upside down like a bat and she felt the need to tell me that it’s getting tight in there so it may not help. Yes, thank you, Captain Helpful; now you decide to become an oversharer… I really tried to keep my head in front of my mom and son but I was so frustrated on the inside. Luckily, this is my last child so I never have to fret about this again. My kids are making it easier and easier to bid farewell to this phase of my life. But I see Dr. Bryant (the doctor scheduled to do my cesarean as well as the one who told me I was pregnant way back in June) on Tuesday. We’re supposed to discuss my surgery along with my usual checkup but I hope he’ll have good news for me about baby both flipping head-down and my cervix continuing to thin/dilate. If not, he may want to move up my surgery to beat her into the birth canal. I don’t recall if they do breech births or not but I know it comes with a risk of hip dysplasia among other risks. At that point, if nothing is going in my favor any longer, there’s really no point in waiting another week, is there? I’d much more prefer a February baby so this may very well be my last full week with only one child. Just in case, I’m going to try to enjoy not being on newborn duty while it lasts. I’m going on Friday to get a much-needed haircut, I’m going to do my nails (make DeWayne do my toes since I can no longer reach them) and just try to get some rest. Sebastian is out of school this week and, while it’s a bit overwhelming, I’m doing my best to spend all our time together since he may feel a bit shuffled soon. Even though I know it could be a lot worse and I’m thankful that I can grow my own children, I’m ready for this all to be over. I want my body back and my baby in my arms (where she can no longer wreak havoc on me physically *Chuckle*).
But I see a similarity in my pregnancies because, after going into the hospital to be induced with Bash, I was absolutely terrified by the idea of having to have a cesarean and prayed my heart out that I’d see dilation. If I could just see progress, I wouldn’t complain about a long labor or pain. Long story short, I dilated to seven centimeters but he just couldn’t come. Because I was scared and stubborn, I spent 36 pointless hours in labor and only gave in to the surgery suggestion when my baby start to distress. I’m sitting here looking for signs again but I guess I’ll take the hint this time. I suppose we’ll know on Tuesday. DeWayne will have to go with me this time because, even acting like a grownup, his reassurance helps soothe my disappointment (yes, I am preparing for the worst…). At least baby girl is healthy and still active.
*Update: The hospital just called and they only have one Cesarean slot open before my due date. So, if Caroline doesn't flip by Tuesday, we'll be having our baby girl on Thursday the 25th at 7:30 a.m. Trying not to be too disappointed...
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from stephc2010 » Posted Feb. 18, 2016 4:03pm I really hope that Caroline flips for you! |
 | Comment from Starmama14 » Posted Feb. 18, 2016 3:26pm Oh man...I don't even know what to tell you! I never ever went into labor on my own either and ended up having my daughter via c-section as well. I hope she flips by Tuesday so you can avoid having a c-section. But, as you know - having one isn't the end of the world AND I just read an article that the 2nd time around your recovery is easier. I am taking comfort in that as I know I will probably end up having one as well. Hang in there mama! Either way you'll be holding that precious girl in your arms soon :) Keep us posted! |
