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My Due Date: March 1, 2016I have given birth!
Age: 37 years old
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Caution: Whining Ahead
By Amanda_McDaniel » Posted Feb. 22, 2016 5:18pm - 294 views - 3 comments
Tomorrow I am officially 39 weeks pregnant. Honestly, I imagined myself having completely different emotions at this point but I suppose time makes fools of us all. I have my appointment in the morning but, judging by what I can feel with various movements, Caroline is still breech and I am destined for a second cesarean. Needless to say, I am not a happy camper, though I’m trying my best to be mature about it. I have stopped standing on my head because, while it’s not impossible for her to go head-down even at this stage, it is highly unlikely and I figure I’d like to spend my last few days as comfortable as possible since it’ll be shuffling, pain killers, and just ‘breathing through it’ for a couple of weeks. *Sigh* I remember being frightened before my first surgery but I was in so much pain and didn’t have the time to contemplate it too much. Now I have three more days to consider the needle going into my back (I hate needles, despite our extensive history), the sensation of the doctor being inside my person, and then the recovery of course. After brain surgery and my last cesarean, I like to fancy myself a courageous person but I’m definitely not feeling that way right now. It’s made it almost impossible for me to enjoy my final few days with just Sebastian as well as view Thursday as my daughter’s birthday rather than the day the medical field once again scars me for life. I’m too deep in my own head and my usual tricks of distraction are falling painfully short… I hope you all don’t think badly of me (I’m doing it enough for all of us), I’m just trying to figure out how best to deal (though, frankly, I probably won’t until I’m in the trenches). If you wouldn’t mind just saying a quick prayer for me. I simply need peace…
Meanwhile, I am likely going to be a proud mother of two beautiful children come Thursday. I am eager to see her face and begin memorizing it, as well as introduce her to her big brother. He’s been waiting so patiently. We’ve already had our talks on what to expect with the surgery and people coming and going, plus the new addition of course, but does anyone else have any tips for a smooth transition? He hasn’t shown the slightest hint of any jealousy (he was the one who started this baby business after all) so I don’t expect trouble but we’re trying to include himself as much as possible. We’re even going to talk to the family planning to be present that, before anyone else gets to see us post-op, Bash gets to be allow with his parents and little sister for as long as he needs. Then we’ll start the steady flow of visitors… I’m tired just thinking about it. Coming home will be the true test though. My in-laws, who I adore but make my life intensely more complicated, will be staying here to help with the kids and my healing. DeWayne will be available but, if they’re going to be here anyway, he might as well work when he can to keep finances from getting tight. My mother-in-law just has a tendency to want the entire family together at all times and I’m not going to feel up to entertaining all the time. Luckily, with my nieces being in school during the week, I should only have to deal with it some evenings and if we come home on Sunday. It drives my husband nuts so I’ll discuss it with him and see where he thinks the line should be drawn. I wish I could plan to enjoy the first week more since I didn’t with Sebastian but that’s typically how long it takes for the initial trauma to pass and being able to sit without cringing to start. Thankfully I’m not as worried about my usual chores as I was because Dew has really started stepping up. As it turns out, he does indeed know how to operate our vacuum and dishwasher…
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Caution: Whining Ahead
By Amanda_McDaniel » Posted Feb. 22, 2016 5:18pm - 294 views - 3 comments
Tomorrow I am officially 39 weeks pregnant. Honestly, I imagined myself having completely different emotions at this point but I suppose time makes fools of us all. I have my appointment in the morning but, judging by what I can feel with various movements, Caroline is still breech and I am destined for a second cesarean. Needless to say, I am not a happy camper, though I’m trying my best to be mature about it. I have stopped standing on my head because, while it’s not impossible for her to go head-down even at this stage, it is highly unlikely and I figure I’d like to spend my last few days as comfortable as possible since it’ll be shuffling, pain killers, and just ‘breathing through it’ for a couple of weeks. *Sigh* I remember being frightened before my first surgery but I was in so much pain and didn’t have the time to contemplate it too much. Now I have three more days to consider the needle going into my back (I hate needles, despite our extensive history), the sensation of the doctor being inside my person, and then the recovery of course. After brain surgery and my last cesarean, I like to fancy myself a courageous person but I’m definitely not feeling that way right now. It’s made it almost impossible for me to enjoy my final few days with just Sebastian as well as view Thursday as my daughter’s birthday rather than the day the medical field once again scars me for life. I’m too deep in my own head and my usual tricks of distraction are falling painfully short… I hope you all don’t think badly of me (I’m doing it enough for all of us), I’m just trying to figure out how best to deal (though, frankly, I probably won’t until I’m in the trenches). If you wouldn’t mind just saying a quick prayer for me. I simply need peace…
Meanwhile, I am likely going to be a proud mother of two beautiful children come Thursday. I am eager to see her face and begin memorizing it, as well as introduce her to her big brother. He’s been waiting so patiently. We’ve already had our talks on what to expect with the surgery and people coming and going, plus the new addition of course, but does anyone else have any tips for a smooth transition? He hasn’t shown the slightest hint of any jealousy (he was the one who started this baby business after all) so I don’t expect trouble but we’re trying to include himself as much as possible. We’re even going to talk to the family planning to be present that, before anyone else gets to see us post-op, Bash gets to be allow with his parents and little sister for as long as he needs. Then we’ll start the steady flow of visitors… I’m tired just thinking about it. Coming home will be the true test though. My in-laws, who I adore but make my life intensely more complicated, will be staying here to help with the kids and my healing. DeWayne will be available but, if they’re going to be here anyway, he might as well work when he can to keep finances from getting tight. My mother-in-law just has a tendency to want the entire family together at all times and I’m not going to feel up to entertaining all the time. Luckily, with my nieces being in school during the week, I should only have to deal with it some evenings and if we come home on Sunday. It drives my husband nuts so I’ll discuss it with him and see where he thinks the line should be drawn. I wish I could plan to enjoy the first week more since I didn’t with Sebastian but that’s typically how long it takes for the initial trauma to pass and being able to sit without cringing to start. Thankfully I’m not as worried about my usual chores as I was because Dew has really started stepping up. As it turns out, he does indeed know how to operate our vacuum and dishwasher…
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from Amanda_McDaniel » Posted Feb. 23, 2016 1:05pm Thanks, ladies. As expected, Caroline is not only breech but breech-transverse so we'll go in after her on Thursday morning. I appreciate any and all prayers. I'm excited, just nervous too. |
 | Comment from lala_0412 » Posted Feb. 23, 2016 10:27am Girl you are a trooper in my book! You have done so great and kept a lot of us positive at times where we were on the break. It is okay for you to not be as happy as you thought you would be. You will be happy when it's all over and done with though. As for Bash, the best transitions happen naturally. You have raised an amazing boy. I never had to worry with any of my kids about jealousy issues. Kids know when they are loved. Just continue to love him like you do. The best part is he will always have a special place in your heart for many reasons. He is your first, he is your son (that alone is such a special bond), and he is and WILL ALWAYS be your baby. I had to laugh out loud when you mentioned DeWayne knowing how to use the vacuum and dishwasher because my honey swore up and down he didn't know how to use the dishwasher till I caught his A** one day! lol. At the end of the day I love ya girl!! We are finally here and in the end we will all be happy, proud mamas! |
 | Comment from stephc2010 » Posted Feb. 22, 2016 11:58pm I will be praying for you! I'm looking forward to hearing about your appointment, but I'm even more excited to see a birth announcement! Lots of prayers and good vibes are being sent your way :) |
