proudmamaerica's Pregnancy

View All My Journal Entries

My Journal

worried about the ultrasound on Tuesday
By proudmamaerica » Posted Nov. 8, 2015 10:52pm - 509 views - 6 comments

I don't know why... I just have this baaaaad feeling about Tuesday. Not in the "I think my baby is dead" sense, because she moves all the time and I know she's (currently) with us. But I just have a sense of foreboding like there is something developmentally wrong. I don't know why I feel this way but I just can't shake it.... I'm going to the ultrasound (as I have with every other ultrasound except for the one we found out the gender because that was elective and I could do it on Saturday so hubs could come) alone, and I'll probably be alone when the nurse or OB calls (unless they don't and I'm just going to assume all is well then.) I just feel like I'm going to have a panic attack over it and I'm thinking about not even going to it... It's the level 2 ultrasound so it's the big one that they look at everything with the baby.

Lord... give me enough strength to show up... then if something is wrong.... give me more strength because I'm going to need it.

Hopefully I'm worried for nothing though.

Comments for this Journal Entry

	Comment from Alice_Wonderer » Posted Nov. 10, 2015 1:07pm Good luck, Erica!!! I understand, I also don't like going alone... I know you are strong, you can do this!!! And hopefully it's just one of those mean thoughts we plant in our own heads but turn out to be incorrect!!!
	Comment from nikolina123 » Posted Nov. 10, 2015 11:34am Hun, i know exactly how you feeling, but im sure that everything is perfect hun. Its totaly ok to feel this way. I have my big scan next saturday, and i have the same feeling that there is something wrong, but its ok to worry about it. I will pray hun for you that everything is ok and that lil girl is healthy and happy :) lods love hun!!! :)
	Comment from proudmamaerica » Posted Nov. 9, 2015 10:43pm thanks ladies for your encouragement. <3 I guess I just wish I had someone going with me. But it will be nice to see her again for sure. :) You're right lala, I wouldn't love her any less but if there was something wrong I wouldn't want it to kill her or make her life painful. (that's what I mean by developmentally.)
	Comment from pbc910 » Posted Nov. 9, 2015 10:49am I don't think that feeling ever goes completely away. I'm 2 weeks away from meeting my babies and still worry each day something could be wrong or they aren't moving enough. I was very anxious before our level two scan. I just try to accept my anxiety but tell myself that everything is ok.
	Comment from MalPal85 » Posted Nov. 9, 2015 9:44am Just like Lala said, just enjoy being able to see your baby again. I'm sure everything is just fine but I know it is hard not to worry. Good luck to you!
	Comment from lala_0412 » Posted Nov. 9, 2015 8:28am Think positive. I had that feeling a while back and everything is fine. I think sometimes you let our thoughts consume us and then it's hard to shake those thoughts. Go to your ultrasound and enjoy seeing your baby again. And in the end if there is something wrong you wouldn't love your child any less. Stay calm and think happy thoughts. Good luck!