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ericalee's Pregnancy
My Due Date: December 1, 2016I have given birth!
Age: 41 years old
Location: Madison, United States
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No heartbeat
By ericalee » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 7:52am - 867 views - 22 comments
Our world was shattered yesterday. We went for my growth ultrasound and my OB was again having a hard time getting a good picture of the baby, which we ran into last time as well. This time, I had a bad feeling because I didn't even see a little flashing heartbeat like last time. I got sent to the hospital for a second ultrasound on better machines and I lay there a long time, just me and the u/s tech while she was trying to take measurements. I knew that it wasn't good... There was no flashing light... no mention of a heartbeat. The one size measurement she got was only 6w2d... which is smaller than last time and very far off from where I should be.
After a very long wait, I was told to go back to my OB's office, which wasn't possible because I needed to pick up my daughter from daycare. I called her office and talking to a nurse, letting them know the situation and that I expected to hear bad news. I asked if they could call me instead. My OB called about 10 minutes later and told me what I was expecting... the baby was gone....
I'm pretty numb. It doesn't seem real. I thought we had made it over the hump. We saw a great heartbeat, great growth, etc. My immune numbers were looking good. I am just at such a loss.
Now I wait. I'm opting to see if my body will start the process on its own. Then we have to avoid for a month to have one regular cycle before we can try again. I just can't believe this is happening again. I really wanted my miscarriage count to end at 5... and now I need to hope 6 is where it ends..
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No heartbeat
By ericalee » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 7:52am - 867 views - 22 comments
Our world was shattered yesterday. We went for my growth ultrasound and my OB was again having a hard time getting a good picture of the baby, which we ran into last time as well. This time, I had a bad feeling because I didn't even see a little flashing heartbeat like last time. I got sent to the hospital for a second ultrasound on better machines and I lay there a long time, just me and the u/s tech while she was trying to take measurements. I knew that it wasn't good... There was no flashing light... no mention of a heartbeat. The one size measurement she got was only 6w2d... which is smaller than last time and very far off from where I should be.
After a very long wait, I was told to go back to my OB's office, which wasn't possible because I needed to pick up my daughter from daycare. I called her office and talking to a nurse, letting them know the situation and that I expected to hear bad news. I asked if they could call me instead. My OB called about 10 minutes later and told me what I was expecting... the baby was gone....
I'm pretty numb. It doesn't seem real. I thought we had made it over the hump. We saw a great heartbeat, great growth, etc. My immune numbers were looking good. I am just at such a loss.
Now I wait. I'm opting to see if my body will start the process on its own. Then we have to avoid for a month to have one regular cycle before we can try again. I just can't believe this is happening again. I really wanted my miscarriage count to end at 5... and now I need to hope 6 is where it ends..
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from stickybean1976 » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 9:48pm Very sorry you are having to go through this difficult time :-( |
 | Comment from Kate0406 » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 5:11pm I'm sorry :( |
 | Comment from Bostonmama08 » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 2:58pm I'm so sorry Erica. It can be so devastating. Sending thoughts and big big warm hugs. |
 | Comment from Mrsfingerscrossd » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 1:37pm Ohhh I am soo sorry and heartbroken for you and your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. |
 | Comment from rcorinne » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 1:05pm Very sad. Take care. I'll be thinking and praying for you and your family. |
 | Comment from pbc910 » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 11:23am Nothing I can say will dull the pain but just know we're thinking of you and sending you hugs! |
 | Comment from CrystalB88 » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 11:21am Oh Erica, I'm so sorry for your loss... My heart is breaking for you and hope your heart finds peace soon... keeping you in my thoughts (hugs) |
 | Comment from HzlGreenEyes » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 11:09am My Broken heart goes out to you. I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers. <3 |
