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Thank you all so much for the prayers!
By dakotagurrl » Posted Jan. 3, 2018 1:24pm - 2231 views - 26 comments

We lost our precious Edie this morning, shortly after 9am. She was 5.5 days old and we were left with a difficult decision. We chose to let her go in peace, she was never going to get better. Edie was placed in my arms for our first and last time, her drugs were withdrawn (minus the morphine for comfort) and her breathing tube removed. She died silently and peacefully with her body in my arms and beautiful head in my hand.

On my way home from Toronto, without my baby. It just hurts....there are no words!

I won't be on here for a bit but I truly wish all of u a safe and happy pregnancy/delivery. Enjoy every minute, it really can be taken away in a second!!!

Comments for this Journal Entry

	Comment from dakotagurrl » Posted Jan. 12, 2018 9:03am Thank u, everyone! We're slowly trying to get back into our groove with everything. We picked up her ashes yesterday and I'm just waiting for the urn I want to come back in stock so I can get that ordered. Hubs' work sent us a $150 credit to a ready-made meals place, so that's been a huge help for those days that neither of us wants to cook. The in-laws have been absolutely disgusting with their selfish behaviour. Somehow they turned this into all about them and their feelings. There have been guilt-trip texts and voicemails left on hubs' phone when Edie was in the hospital. A few calls to the hospital to let the nurses know that she's grandma and has a right to know the status of her granddaughter, we shut that shit down fast, then numerous texts and msgs after her passing to let us know how much they're hurting too and to include them. Hubs phoned back to ask them what HE could do for THEM to make THEM feel better. Of course that was met with silence. Fucking assholes!
	Comment from diamondbaby » Posted Jan. 8, 2018 3:57pm I’m so sorry for your loss. My prays and thoughts are you and your family. RIP little angel sending love your way and may you find the strength to heal.. xxxx
	Comment from asuperfreak » Posted Jan. 8, 2018 12:06pm I am so sorry to hear this. Leaving the hospital with out your baby is devastating. What love you showed Edie in her brief time here. I will be thinking of you.
	Comment from WaitingwithHope » Posted Jan. 7, 2018 9:18pm So sorry for your loss <3
	Comment from phatgurl » Posted Jan. 5, 2018 11:44am I am so sorry for your loss. I know your heart is broken.
	Comment from Randall0123 » Posted Jan. 5, 2018 9:03am Sandy, I'm in shock right now. Hun, if there is anything i can do for you please let me know. My heart goes out to you and your family.
	Comment from MrsFord » Posted Jan. 4, 2018 12:47pm So sorry for your loss. Thinking of you and your family.
	Comment from hayleycynthia » Posted Jan. 4, 2018 10:31am I never know what to say. A totally unthinkable loss. My thoughtd and prayers are with you and your family