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Vanishing twin
By josamarie » Posted Jul. 3, 2015 7:07am - 349 views - 6 comments

So, my new doctor pushes the radiology reports to my online chart (the old one didn't), which is a good and bad thing. Just got my report from Tuesday (8+4), and it looks like there were two in there, but that the second never developed a fetal pole. At my 5+2 u/s I thought I saw 2 sacs, and then at the 6+4 u/s the radiologist noted a intrauterine fluid filled 'cyst' immediately adjacent to the baby and stated that a second pregnancy couldn't be ruled out and should be followed up on. This new report says that it's most likely it is a blighted ovum, not a cyst, right next to the baby. It doesn't say that there was, for sure, two babies, but it implies it pretty heavily. That along with my higher than normal hcg numbers early on that didn't raise fast enough after 6 weeks (numbers at 8 weeks barely tripled from 6 weeks, it was like a 200 hr doubling time, which really freaked me out), along with a sort of gut feeling there might be twins prior to the first u/s, tells me it's true.

I don't really know how to feel about this news. On the one hand, I'm overjoyed that there is one healthy baby in there, I honestly don't know how I could have handled newborn twins with a not-quite-2-year-old, so know this is a good outcome for us, but I'm also sad knowing that there were two and now there's only one. I actually think I might have been better off being blissfully unaware. We're on vacation and it's the holiday weekend, trying not to let the news interfere with my emotions, not even sure if I should tell Charlie. Very strange feeling.

Comments for this Journal Entry

	Comment from mnor0406 » Posted Jul. 4, 2015 8:22pm I had a vanishing twin during my recent pregnancy. My one healthy baby is now a week and 1/2 old! I did ivf and transferred 2 embryos, I had higher than normal hcg and at my 6 week u/s there were 2 sacs, 2 yolk sacs but only 1 fetal pole. I went back at 7 weeks, but still only 1 fetal pole so they determined that the other twin was a blighted ovum. The sac remained until my 12 week u/s when it was almost completely gone. It was sad to have 1 not develop but I am overjoyed to have my 1 healthy baby. Just a heads up, I had a lot of red spotting due to my body trying to absorb the 2nd sac which freaked me out. So if you do have some spotting it's probably normal, not that you shouldn't get it checked out just in case but don't freak!
	Comment from luckyrobin » Posted Jul. 3, 2015 5:22pm It does happen unfortunately:( My friend's husband was a twin-but his vanished as well. Best wishes moving forward and have a great pregnancy!
	Comment from josamarie » Posted Jul. 3, 2015 11:59am Thank you, it helps to know it's more common than one would think. I think I'll be in a weird place for a while, happy for the baby that's still with us, sad about the loss, and guilty for not feeling worse (I was inconsolable when we lost our daughter, this is so different). Talked with Charlie this morning, he didn't say much but he's been in a shitty mood for days so I didn't really expect much from him, talking to my mom was a little more productive, she gets it after losing 3 babies herself. I think it's gonna take a while to sink in, it's a lot to take in all at once, that there were two and now there's not.
	Comment from RedBetty » Posted Jul. 3, 2015 9:34am My sister who is 38 weeks pregnant had the same thing happen to her. It was really painful and was hard for her to cope with at first but it gradually got better. I am sorry you had to experience it but I am thankful just like you said that the other baby is safe and healthy. Hugs
	Comment from pbc910 » Posted Jul. 3, 2015 8:34am I had read all about this before my 11 week ultrasound so that if there was only 1, I would be prepared. Apparently, this happens in 20-30% of twin pregnancies and happens more with older moms. I definitely think if this were to have happened with me, I almost wouldn't want to know if that was possible but that would have been difficult considering we found out it was twins so early (at 6 weeks).
	Comment from JessyM83 » Posted Jul. 3, 2015 7:49am I lost one of my twins at 12 weeks! I totally understand where you are coming from! My son is a happy and healthy 7 month old... I'm so thankful for my sweet boy but there are times where I think what it! Happy you have a healthy little one! Good luck!