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My Due Date: July 19, 2015I have given birth!
Age: 39 years old
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On my way out
By rcorinne » Posted Aug. 13, 2015 10:39pm - 685 views - 9 comments
Well, I think I've kind of finished with the whole updating CMP thing. I don't want to leave you all, but I don't have a "pregnancy" to blog about anymore. In a way this is the 4th trimester. Emma wants to be held a lot. It's good. She's snuggly. She does seem to fuss more than Cameron did. Perhaps I'm less available, so it seems like more fussing. I mean, I've got another kid to deal with, so sometimes she has to wait, and visa versa. The first few weeks have been really tough on our family. Emma's diagnosis of MCAD deficiency really threw us for a loop, especially after the brief NICU stay, which thankfully she came out of with only an IV scab and heel stabs from glucose testing, and no worse for wear otherwise. DH and I have felt some strain on our relationship, especially with Cameron being both clingy and disobedient. We had a portion of last weekend without him, and it was such a relief. Of all the crazy good things to come out of this, though, Cameron is potty trained! I really thought he would/could do it this summer, but I didn't know how long it would take. And... I realistically feared the worst-- that he would kinda get it but still need diapers sometimes at daycare this fall. Boy, has he proved me wrong. He's even waking up in the middle of the night to pee in the toilet rather than soil the diaper I preventatively put on him at bedtime. He's really becoming a big kid. The downsides of that are his temper tantrums and firm desire to NOT do what I want him to do are really tough to handle. I can't just pick him up and forcibly move him where I want him to go. He kicks and hits. He screams. He is his own person and must decide on his own to come with me, or there is little I can do to force the situation. I had trouble getting him out of the house on more than one occasion these past couple weeks that DH has been back to work. Tough, when we've had appointments or errands to run. Also, I feel like I'm constantly battling to keep him from being in front of a screen 24/7. It's easier to get stuff done around the house and take care of Emma if Cameron is otherwise occupied, but I can't stand the fit he throws when I turn off the TV/computer/phone. It's almost not worth letting him look at it in the first place. However, I cannot tolerate zero/limited screens. Heck, I NEED screen time, for him and me, together and separate. It's sanity. We went to the park almost everyday last week. This week we went to the hospital for Emma's genetic testing blood draw. We went to the store a couple times. We went to the pool twice. We've not just been sitting on our butts, but the days are long. It's exhausting. I feel both lazy and busy. I'm constantly doing laundry. I'm obsessing about the clutter, the filthy old carpet, the dirty toilets, the clothes that almost fit, the next appointment, the next feeding, diaper rash, visitors, DH's activities sans me, etc. My mother-in-law stayed here two days this week and allowed me to go to the dentist and the eye doctor. It was wonderful. I wish she could have stayed longer. Another adult to talk to, hold Emma, prep food, and play with Cam is sooooo helpful. It's not quite as efficient as two of me, but in a way, even better than cloned Becca, because I crave friendship and empathy. Emma is already so big that she doesn't fit into all but one of her newborn sleepers. It's been too hot for them anyway, so on to the next recipient. Too bad. She seems both tiny and growing ridiculously fast. Her little body has filled out, especially her teeny arms and legs. Soon we'll be onto the next size of clothes waiting for her. Babies are only babies for a short time. It's fleeting. Must enjoy her. Must be grateful. One day at a time.
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On my way out
By rcorinne » Posted Aug. 13, 2015 10:39pm - 685 views - 9 comments
Well, I think I've kind of finished with the whole updating CMP thing. I don't want to leave you all, but I don't have a "pregnancy" to blog about anymore. In a way this is the 4th trimester. Emma wants to be held a lot. It's good. She's snuggly. She does seem to fuss more than Cameron did. Perhaps I'm less available, so it seems like more fussing. I mean, I've got another kid to deal with, so sometimes she has to wait, and visa versa. The first few weeks have been really tough on our family. Emma's diagnosis of MCAD deficiency really threw us for a loop, especially after the brief NICU stay, which thankfully she came out of with only an IV scab and heel stabs from glucose testing, and no worse for wear otherwise. DH and I have felt some strain on our relationship, especially with Cameron being both clingy and disobedient. We had a portion of last weekend without him, and it was such a relief. Of all the crazy good things to come out of this, though, Cameron is potty trained! I really thought he would/could do it this summer, but I didn't know how long it would take. And... I realistically feared the worst-- that he would kinda get it but still need diapers sometimes at daycare this fall. Boy, has he proved me wrong. He's even waking up in the middle of the night to pee in the toilet rather than soil the diaper I preventatively put on him at bedtime. He's really becoming a big kid. The downsides of that are his temper tantrums and firm desire to NOT do what I want him to do are really tough to handle. I can't just pick him up and forcibly move him where I want him to go. He kicks and hits. He screams. He is his own person and must decide on his own to come with me, or there is little I can do to force the situation. I had trouble getting him out of the house on more than one occasion these past couple weeks that DH has been back to work. Tough, when we've had appointments or errands to run. Also, I feel like I'm constantly battling to keep him from being in front of a screen 24/7. It's easier to get stuff done around the house and take care of Emma if Cameron is otherwise occupied, but I can't stand the fit he throws when I turn off the TV/computer/phone. It's almost not worth letting him look at it in the first place. However, I cannot tolerate zero/limited screens. Heck, I NEED screen time, for him and me, together and separate. It's sanity. We went to the park almost everyday last week. This week we went to the hospital for Emma's genetic testing blood draw. We went to the store a couple times. We went to the pool twice. We've not just been sitting on our butts, but the days are long. It's exhausting. I feel both lazy and busy. I'm constantly doing laundry. I'm obsessing about the clutter, the filthy old carpet, the dirty toilets, the clothes that almost fit, the next appointment, the next feeding, diaper rash, visitors, DH's activities sans me, etc. My mother-in-law stayed here two days this week and allowed me to go to the dentist and the eye doctor. It was wonderful. I wish she could have stayed longer. Another adult to talk to, hold Emma, prep food, and play with Cam is sooooo helpful. It's not quite as efficient as two of me, but in a way, even better than cloned Becca, because I crave friendship and empathy. Emma is already so big that she doesn't fit into all but one of her newborn sleepers. It's been too hot for them anyway, so on to the next recipient. Too bad. She seems both tiny and growing ridiculously fast. Her little body has filled out, especially her teeny arms and legs. Soon we'll be onto the next size of clothes waiting for her. Babies are only babies for a short time. It's fleeting. Must enjoy her. Must be grateful. One day at a time.
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from adiggs » Posted Aug. 19, 2015 2:25am I will miss you :( I will probably be leaving soon as well.... as I don't really have anything to say now that I'm not waiting for a baby. I'll probably just pop on here from time to time to see how some people are doing. It is crazy though... how fast they grow. I can't believe my little guy is already 11 days old... I can't believe how chubby his little cheeks and belly have already gotten. He seems huge compared to how little he was only 11 days ago. |
 | Comment from Mrs.Mom » Posted Aug. 15, 2015 9:45am What a great entry. So honest. I know I'm in for the same thing. My girl is also very much her own person and at times it's tough. I know having a newborn plus her is going to be even tougher! Best wishes to you and your beautiful family. Keep up the good work mama. We give so much to our children/spouse that sometimes it's hard to maintain sanity. Remember, you are not alone in those feelings. You do what you need to do to get by and if that means a little more screen time for your son. So be it. Take care. |
| Comment from Kitten90 » Posted Aug. 14, 2015 2:05pm You're right, one day at a time! =) I'll miss seeing updates from you but I totally understand. No pregnancy to talk about and you've got your hands full! I'm gonna be pretty busy once my little bundle arrives too and I can't imagine I'll be on too often either. |
 | Comment from Summer0120 » Posted Aug. 14, 2015 12:05pm So happy to hear that everything is going well!! Thank you for all of your support the last few months. Good luck in the future and enjoy your little family! :) |
 | Comment from pbc910 » Posted Aug. 14, 2015 11:04am My experience is limited to older children but it's super tough to give each kid attention especially when they want it at the SAME time! It somehow works out but still not easy, ever! Hopefully you are getting through the hardest part now and soon everything will fall into place. She is a cutie and so big already! |
| Comment from eat2nourish » Posted Aug. 14, 2015 10:41am I'm glad all is going well with Emma. Look at her nice thighs! I'm beginning to think a lot of women feel a bit isolated when they are home by themselves after childbirth. I have plans to go to the local library, Barnes & Noble for storytime & joining a/some local mommy groups, but we'll see if I'm up to it. It's probably normal for Cam to act out a little due to the adjustment from being an only child to having to share mommy's attention. Hang in there! |
 | Comment from MalPal85 » Posted Aug. 14, 2015 8:42am Still so happy for you. Glad everything is OK with Emma. Enjoy! |
 | Comment from Amanda_McDaniel » Posted Aug. 14, 2015 7:20am May God bless your family! |
