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My Due Date: March 1, 2016I have given birth!
Age: 37 years old
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Caroline is Three Weeks Old!
By Amanda_McDaniel » Posted Mar. 17, 2016 5:35pm - 339 views - 2 comments
Well this was my first week back in charge and, surprisingly, it has passed much more slowly than the previous two. I have become reacquainted with the dilemma that faces every mother… I am trying to absorb and enjoy every moment of Caroline’s babyhood but, at the same time, it gets tough. I hope it’s due to my body adjusting like I’ve read but my milk is no longer overproducing. I panicked at first but she’s swallowing, messing diapers, and seems content after nursing but I have only gotten five extra ounces pumped in three days and I only have five more frozen (DeWayne used up our reserves so I could sleep last weekend… wasted). It has a way of making me feel like I’m failing, even though she’s eating, but probably only because she has taken to cluster feeding and I get very little rest. As a result, I am now cosleeping. I am not a fan but it’s the only way I can sleep longer than an hour at a time… I guess it’s lucky that DeWayne works nights and wants to work all weekend, I’m definitely not comfortable cosleeping if there are two adults in our bed. Sadly, my euphoria has taken a hit. Being back in charge and having a newborn, I feel like there’s never enough hours in a day and Care definitely wins out over chores. I’ve spoiled her already, I’m afraid. She’s not okay being away from me and, aside from a few minutes spent in her swing a couple times a day, she has to be sound asleep before I can set her down and then she hollers for me the second she becomes aware. She has her daddy’s temper, that’s for sure. Sebastian was the most easygoing baby, minus his short bout with acid reflux, and was not a big crier or at least could sleep in his bassinet. Caroline has legit not yet slept in it once… I keep getting tired and wanting to quit on the breastfeeding but I remind myself that, in the long run, this is a very short minute and, if I suffer the same fate that I did with Bash, it’ll be gone before I’m ready to let go anyway. Plus, I know how many would kill even for this small struggle. I’m trying to cut down on the number of regrets I stack up where my children are concerned. Still – I’m looking forward to the six week mark when I’m released to workout (if I can find time) and take baths (hallelujah!). Not a lot else is going on. We’re just trying to settle into our new normal. I’ve begun trying to drive my son back and forth to school when I can, and soon I’ll have to venture into the grocery store again. Until then, I’m balancing being seen by outsiders with (semi) regular showers. Hah! At least we can look forward to Easter.
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Caroline is Three Weeks Old!
By Amanda_McDaniel » Posted Mar. 17, 2016 5:35pm - 339 views - 2 comments
Well this was my first week back in charge and, surprisingly, it has passed much more slowly than the previous two. I have become reacquainted with the dilemma that faces every mother… I am trying to absorb and enjoy every moment of Caroline’s babyhood but, at the same time, it gets tough. I hope it’s due to my body adjusting like I’ve read but my milk is no longer overproducing. I panicked at first but she’s swallowing, messing diapers, and seems content after nursing but I have only gotten five extra ounces pumped in three days and I only have five more frozen (DeWayne used up our reserves so I could sleep last weekend… wasted). It has a way of making me feel like I’m failing, even though she’s eating, but probably only because she has taken to cluster feeding and I get very little rest. As a result, I am now cosleeping. I am not a fan but it’s the only way I can sleep longer than an hour at a time… I guess it’s lucky that DeWayne works nights and wants to work all weekend, I’m definitely not comfortable cosleeping if there are two adults in our bed. Sadly, my euphoria has taken a hit. Being back in charge and having a newborn, I feel like there’s never enough hours in a day and Care definitely wins out over chores. I’ve spoiled her already, I’m afraid. She’s not okay being away from me and, aside from a few minutes spent in her swing a couple times a day, she has to be sound asleep before I can set her down and then she hollers for me the second she becomes aware. She has her daddy’s temper, that’s for sure. Sebastian was the most easygoing baby, minus his short bout with acid reflux, and was not a big crier or at least could sleep in his bassinet. Caroline has legit not yet slept in it once… I keep getting tired and wanting to quit on the breastfeeding but I remind myself that, in the long run, this is a very short minute and, if I suffer the same fate that I did with Bash, it’ll be gone before I’m ready to let go anyway. Plus, I know how many would kill even for this small struggle. I’m trying to cut down on the number of regrets I stack up where my children are concerned. Still – I’m looking forward to the six week mark when I’m released to workout (if I can find time) and take baths (hallelujah!). Not a lot else is going on. We’re just trying to settle into our new normal. I’ve begun trying to drive my son back and forth to school when I can, and soon I’ll have to venture into the grocery store again. Until then, I’m balancing being seen by outsiders with (semi) regular showers. Hah! At least we can look forward to Easter.
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from josamarie » Posted Mar. 21, 2016 6:02pm What a sweet photo! You're doing nothing a great job, momma, this stage is all about survival! |
 | Comment from Sailorswife » Posted Mar. 19, 2016 9:28pm Oh my goodness, what a cute Easter picture. I co-slept with both of my kids, not all of the time, but mist of the time. It too was due to struggling to breast feed. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to nurse for more than two months with either of them. One needed to ve placed on soy formula, and with my daughter my milk dried up no matter what we did (even took a rx to help, but it didn't). So if you're producing enough, you should so keep breast feeding, it's completely worth the struggle. I have been praying I'm able to breast feed this time, I'd do anything! I think it sounds like you are doing an incredible job! |
