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5w and 1d and nervous
By Lolo1176 » Posted Jul. 15, 2015 11:19am - 264 views - 3 comments

I hate that I am this nervous. And it's funny I am not nervous about being pregnant, I am nervous about losing this one too.

I lost my last 2 pregnancies in week 5 and I am just so nervous that it will happen again.

Last week I had many symptoms of nausea, achiness, boobs pain, itchiness, low back & hip pain.

Today I am getting nervous. I woke up with barely any symptoms again today. It's weird to me. Monday my boobs, low back and hips were killing me but yesterday and today except for the slight nipple/boob pain (which is on & off but increasing a bit) and feeling tired, I don't really feel much else. Well, except for a slight cough and dry mouth. I can't help but be nervous that this won't stick. I hate that this is the 5th week. I lost the other 2 during this week. I also know it's normal for me to be nervous this week. But is it normal for the symptoms to be this down low for a couple days too?

I know most of us stop temping not long after they get their BFP but it has become such a habit that I am having a hard time stopping. I think I plan to truly stop after my 1st u/s. But my temp dropped down to 98.04 from 98.50 this morning...granted I took it earlier than usual and the windows were open and it was pretty cool last night...so I am sure I am reading into that too much.

I just want this so badly. I have been more than ready to be a mom to my own children. Whether it be one, two or three. I pray I am not jinxing myself by being so excited for having such high HCG levels. I wish the doctor had scheduled another blood test for me but he didn't. He was so happy with the results he didn't see a need for me to come back in until the u/s on Aug 3rd.

I thought I would bring my mind to ease by taking another digital this morning too, since those are the only tests I have left...expecting it to say 3+ weeks on the Clearblue. But it was the same as last week and said 2-3. I pray next week it say 3+.

Why does time have to drag so slowly before the tests you want to have?

Please God let this one stick.
Please, please, please!!!

Comments for this Journal Entry

	Comment from Lolo1176 » Posted Jul. 16, 2015 10:12am Thank you ladies for all your support. It feels good knowing that symptoms can come and go. I am feeling better today. Slightly nauseous and tired but in general I am feeling better. It's nice to know I am not alone in this...lol. And that we are all pretty much going through the same things. Yesterday my symptoms...mostly my nipples and boobs, started to hurt. I was also told to ditch the thermometer...lol...so I placed it in my drawer, hopefully, to never have to use it again. Well, except for checking for fevers. ;)
	Comment from pbc910 » Posted Jul. 15, 2015 6:19pm It's hard not to be nervous, especially when you've tried so hard to get here! I was a basket case at 5 weeks thinking there was really nothing there or that at my ultrasound we wouldn't see anything. I felt fine too for the most part..no sore boobs, no nausea, nothing to say, "Hey, I'm pregnant." That was the only week that I allowed myself to freak out! When I saw TWO healthy heartbeats at 6 weeks, I decided to just put my faith in everything working out. I agree about those tests too..so many variation among women that they can drive you crazy! I know it's not always easy to relax but just try telling yourself everything will be ok because it will help you feel much better than worrying about things. Hopefully the time passes quickly before your next tests!
	Comment from dakotagurrl » Posted Jul. 15, 2015 1:08pm Awww, try to relax! I know its worrisome, but this is a new pregnancy, so try not to let the past ruin ur present joy. And for ur own sanity, ditch the thermometer!! U will have all sorts of drops and rises, and u can analyze each and every one of them til ur blue in the face...but they mean jacksh*t at this point. Seriously! Hit up CDTP and look at my chart. I too couldnt stop temping. I panicked when they started dropping, then I bled and they continued to drop, then I bled some more and they still kept dropping. They actually went back down to my baseline temps (over 1 degree drop). I know better than to temp, but just couldnt stop...once they spiked back up to post-O again, I left the therm in a drawer in the bathroom. Pregnancy carries enough worry without adding extra to it via a thermometer. And dont let the CB upset u. I never got a 3+ with DD, and I peed on those damn things til 28dpo. They suck ass!! Chin up! =))