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My Due Date: September 9, 2013I am postpartum » My due date was more than 2 weeks ago
Age: 47 years old
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feeling different
By Brightstar » Posted Jan. 16, 2013 9:05pm - 271 views - 0 comments
my belly at both sides feels full,a strange feeling that find hard to find words to explain.I felt both sides of the belly aching,I suddenly wondered...oh no not another ectopic,but with the twins I actually felt them around this time wriggling in my tubes.I know,sounds crazy but experience tells me it is true.Its good for me to write about it actually,I don't talk about the losses alott at all.
I dont care that I am still awake,I will sleep when I sleep,wake when I wake.I wish to flow more with my life,I wish to appreciate it more,embrace it more.I live an artists life,it is a life I am extremelly grateful for,though art wasn't flowing well tonight,you get times like that.I won at monopoly with my son,we watched the circus,I love the circus,so full of magic and laughter.
Not sure what I shall do next after here,I have been very much into writing,there's nothing I wish to do,all I can think of is another small dance section,its just four moves and they are so beautiful,gentle and graceful,I wish them to become a forever part of me.
Normally with a period,I would stop for a day and then start again,I havn't started again,though I do wonder if I will bleed tomorrow.As I sit here typing my belly feels heavy and crampy,great that we can come here and nust write isnt it.The computer never gets tired of hearing me ...hehehe.I find it so relaxing to just sit here and type,it's a form of meditation in itself.
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feeling different
By Brightstar » Posted Jan. 16, 2013 9:05pm - 271 views - 0 comments
my belly at both sides feels full,a strange feeling that find hard to find words to explain.I felt both sides of the belly aching,I suddenly wondered...oh no not another ectopic,but with the twins I actually felt them around this time wriggling in my tubes.I know,sounds crazy but experience tells me it is true.Its good for me to write about it actually,I don't talk about the losses alott at all.
I dont care that I am still awake,I will sleep when I sleep,wake when I wake.I wish to flow more with my life,I wish to appreciate it more,embrace it more.I live an artists life,it is a life I am extremelly grateful for,though art wasn't flowing well tonight,you get times like that.I won at monopoly with my son,we watched the circus,I love the circus,so full of magic and laughter.
Not sure what I shall do next after here,I have been very much into writing,there's nothing I wish to do,all I can think of is another small dance section,its just four moves and they are so beautiful,gentle and graceful,I wish them to become a forever part of me.
Normally with a period,I would stop for a day and then start again,I havn't started again,though I do wonder if I will bleed tomorrow.As I sit here typing my belly feels heavy and crampy,great that we can come here and nust write isnt it.The computer never gets tired of hearing me ...hehehe.I find it so relaxing to just sit here and type,it's a form of meditation in itself.
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