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My Due Date: September 9, 2013I am postpartum » My due date was more than 2 weeks ago
Age: 47 years old
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A tired day
By Brightstar » Posted Feb. 17, 2013 12:43pm - 175 views - 0 comments
I feel so tired today,Last night our little pet ratties sounded to be having a party,they kept me awake for a long time into the night.I got up and moved them out in the end!
I am sleepy but awake,awake but sleepy.
My cravings for food often confuse me and are misleading,but deep in my heart
I am grateful.I feel like crying like alica at times like this,I guess its the relief,relief to be pregnant,I guess its stored up sadness for the babies I miss.
My mum died 3 years ago,doesn't normally bother me so much,but recently I have been on a bit of a quest for forgivness.
Its nice and relieving to feel some sadness,thankyou God.
We will be 11 weeks tomorrow.I don't feel as much growth this week,it has been mainly boobage and not much else but that's ok,I am good with that.
I will know when I take some pictures tomorrow.time passes sometimes,other days,like today,it is almost as if the whole time has stood still.I breath deeper,I pray,breath even deeper,I am relieved.
My blessings,I count them,there are so many,I am grateful Lord,yet still I feel a sadness dep inside,for what,for who,for why...
Making chilli soup,having a vegetable sprin roll with it.I eat more often,yet my meals are smaller.some days all I think about is food.I feel like having a night from callanetics,but I won't,I can have a nice bath and some soothing callan,a small dance,all of these things make me feel better.I dont feel like doing much,but to lay here doing nothing,I would feel worse.Lord let me know that I am on the right track,I need you today more than ever,I open my heart to you,I turn to you,I yearn for you.
peace be with you x
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A tired day
By Brightstar » Posted Feb. 17, 2013 12:43pm - 175 views - 0 comments
I feel so tired today,Last night our little pet ratties sounded to be having a party,they kept me awake for a long time into the night.I got up and moved them out in the end!
I am sleepy but awake,awake but sleepy.
My cravings for food often confuse me and are misleading,but deep in my heart
I am grateful.I feel like crying like alica at times like this,I guess its the relief,relief to be pregnant,I guess its stored up sadness for the babies I miss.
My mum died 3 years ago,doesn't normally bother me so much,but recently I have been on a bit of a quest for forgivness.
Its nice and relieving to feel some sadness,thankyou God.
We will be 11 weeks tomorrow.I don't feel as much growth this week,it has been mainly boobage and not much else but that's ok,I am good with that.
I will know when I take some pictures tomorrow.time passes sometimes,other days,like today,it is almost as if the whole time has stood still.I breath deeper,I pray,breath even deeper,I am relieved.
My blessings,I count them,there are so many,I am grateful Lord,yet still I feel a sadness dep inside,for what,for who,for why...
Making chilli soup,having a vegetable sprin roll with it.I eat more often,yet my meals are smaller.some days all I think about is food.I feel like having a night from callanetics,but I won't,I can have a nice bath and some soothing callan,a small dance,all of these things make me feel better.I dont feel like doing much,but to lay here doing nothing,I would feel worse.Lord let me know that I am on the right track,I need you today more than ever,I open my heart to you,I turn to you,I yearn for you.
peace be with you x
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