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My Due Date: October 9, 2013I have given birth!
Age: 40 years old
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The trauma of the bleed
By Lozie84 » Posted Feb. 20, 2013 11:13pm - 282 views - 4 comments
So just after my last entry about being uncomfy bending over, i discovered that i was bleeding. not just a little. i freaked out. i rang my sister to bring me some pads so i could track the loss. she didnt previously know i was pregnant. i still had lots of packing to do and movers turning up the next day to move me. i was distraught by the bright red blood. after already suffering a miscarriage i thought the worst. my sister came over to drop off the pads and i blurted it out. "im pregnant and im bleeding" i was sobbing and my chin was doing the wobble haha. she was good and helped me pack up some more stuff. then i started to pass some very little clots. i knew that meant bad things. eventually it eased up. i went to bed absolutely miserable. the next morning i had brown in the cm. still super upset by the situation i let my mum help me with the rest of the packing and help organise things. she still doesnt know im pregnant.
i rang my doctor once the surgery had opened. she rang back after lunch and suggested an ultrasound to see whats happening. i was already scheduled for the scan 9 am the next morning. i held out until then.
so my older sister now also knows im pregnant and she came to the scan with me. im laying there looking up at the big screen and just so sad. the sonographer put the sound on and "beat beat beat" the baby has a heart beat!!!! i couldnt believe it and shed a few tears. even after the scan i was still miserable, so scared that i was still losing brownish cm and would still lose the baby.
next morning i met my OBGYN. she got the report from the scan which said id had subchorionic hematoma. the obgyn wanted to see what was happening for herself. she wasnt concerned at the amount of blood resent, and this was the reason for my bleeding. the heart beat was strong for such an early baby which was nice to hear. i really liked her, she spent a lot of time and didnt rush me in and out which was lovely.
another day has now passed and i just cant lift my mood. i know it doesnt make sense, but its just how it is atm.
praying the rest of the blood is absorbed by the body and i dont have to see that again. it broke my heart.
hopefully God is with me during this hard time. xoxo
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The trauma of the bleed
By Lozie84 » Posted Feb. 20, 2013 11:13pm - 282 views - 4 comments
So just after my last entry about being uncomfy bending over, i discovered that i was bleeding. not just a little. i freaked out. i rang my sister to bring me some pads so i could track the loss. she didnt previously know i was pregnant. i still had lots of packing to do and movers turning up the next day to move me. i was distraught by the bright red blood. after already suffering a miscarriage i thought the worst. my sister came over to drop off the pads and i blurted it out. "im pregnant and im bleeding" i was sobbing and my chin was doing the wobble haha. she was good and helped me pack up some more stuff. then i started to pass some very little clots. i knew that meant bad things. eventually it eased up. i went to bed absolutely miserable. the next morning i had brown in the cm. still super upset by the situation i let my mum help me with the rest of the packing and help organise things. she still doesnt know im pregnant.
i rang my doctor once the surgery had opened. she rang back after lunch and suggested an ultrasound to see whats happening. i was already scheduled for the scan 9 am the next morning. i held out until then.
so my older sister now also knows im pregnant and she came to the scan with me. im laying there looking up at the big screen and just so sad. the sonographer put the sound on and "beat beat beat" the baby has a heart beat!!!! i couldnt believe it and shed a few tears. even after the scan i was still miserable, so scared that i was still losing brownish cm and would still lose the baby.
next morning i met my OBGYN. she got the report from the scan which said id had subchorionic hematoma. the obgyn wanted to see what was happening for herself. she wasnt concerned at the amount of blood resent, and this was the reason for my bleeding. the heart beat was strong for such an early baby which was nice to hear. i really liked her, she spent a lot of time and didnt rush me in and out which was lovely.
another day has now passed and i just cant lift my mood. i know it doesnt make sense, but its just how it is atm.
praying the rest of the blood is absorbed by the body and i dont have to see that again. it broke my heart.
hopefully God is with me during this hard time. xoxo
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from Lozie84 » Posted Mar. 9, 2013 2:18am Thanks ladies. Baby is still going well. the fear is still there. the last miscarriage was 11-12weeks along so every wipe down there is like a breath holding moment, and a huge sigh of relief everytime its ok! just so keen to get over the hump of the last miscarriage and to truly feel safe. Thanks for the support. |
 | Comment from roobabyttc » Posted Feb. 22, 2013 11:17am I"m so glad every thing is okay, i'm in tears reading about you. I know it is hard but just take one day at a time. That is what i am doing. I'm so worried i wont see a heart beat at my first u/s on the 28th and have to do another D&C. I think when you have suffered a loss you assume the worse to soften the blow....in will reality we are never ready for the worse. Hang in there, you little bean is still growing so strong. :D |
| Comment from brittthomp4 » Posted Feb. 21, 2013 8:53am KEEP your chin up!! I am so glad baby is doing good :) |
 | Comment from FebBabyx » Posted Feb. 21, 2013 2:31am I'm so happy that everything turned out okay for you and your baby! You must have been so frightened. I hope you have a happy and healthy 9 months. Xx |
