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My Due Date: September 18, 2015I am postpartum » My due date was more than 2 weeks ago
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Obsessing over a VBAC.
By BMA625 » Posted Apr. 2, 2015 3:44pm - 312 views - 4 comments
I don't know why I'm doing this. I know it's not in my hands, but I'm seriously obsessing over having a VBAC. I have read books, gone on blogs, websites, read medical journals. Watched every single You Tube, and even all the episodes of "Business of being born." I'm walking, doing prenatal yoga, and I'm going to start going to a chrio soon to not only help with my back pain, but my alignment. I'm praying, and hoping I do everything right to get my dreamed "natural" birth. I don't know what else to do, and it's stressing me out.
I had a 9lb, 14 oz baby last time. I was 41 wks and never went into labor, nor did my body even start to show signs of laboring. My doctor knew it was a big baby, and didn't want to induce me in fear of him getting stuck. My section went without a hitch, and my baby was born beautiful and perfect. I was madly in love and grateful. As for me, It took a good 6 wks for me to be able to start doing normal things like bending over-or getting out of bed without intense burning and pain, and truly about 6-8 months to start feeling like myself again. It sucked.
I truly DO NOT want a c-section again this time.
My husband is more at peace with it than I am, and will be happy with any outcome. Of course he will! He's not doing it! LOL! I also don't think he understands how much I WANT to Labor and go through all that. He thinks I'm crazy to want to actually FEEL the pain, but I do! My friends' don't get it either, they all had normal births, and they ALL got epidurals. They all told me they would have rather had "planned" c-sections, but I think they are nuts! I thinks it's hard for people to relate when they haven't been what I have been through. To not feel labor, to not see your baby being born, to not hold them until an hour after being born... ugh.. I honestly don't want that again.
I think I'm just weepy and emotional this week. And stressing over something I have no control over. If I have a BIG baby again, or if I go over 41 wks, I get another c-section. I of course want a healthy baby, but I just wish I could have it all! lol!
On a good note, we get to find out what we're having this weekend!! I could not be more thrilled! :)
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Obsessing over a VBAC.
By BMA625 » Posted Apr. 2, 2015 3:44pm - 312 views - 4 comments
I don't know why I'm doing this. I know it's not in my hands, but I'm seriously obsessing over having a VBAC. I have read books, gone on blogs, websites, read medical journals. Watched every single You Tube, and even all the episodes of "Business of being born." I'm walking, doing prenatal yoga, and I'm going to start going to a chrio soon to not only help with my back pain, but my alignment. I'm praying, and hoping I do everything right to get my dreamed "natural" birth. I don't know what else to do, and it's stressing me out.
I had a 9lb, 14 oz baby last time. I was 41 wks and never went into labor, nor did my body even start to show signs of laboring. My doctor knew it was a big baby, and didn't want to induce me in fear of him getting stuck. My section went without a hitch, and my baby was born beautiful and perfect. I was madly in love and grateful. As for me, It took a good 6 wks for me to be able to start doing normal things like bending over-or getting out of bed without intense burning and pain, and truly about 6-8 months to start feeling like myself again. It sucked.
I truly DO NOT want a c-section again this time.
My husband is more at peace with it than I am, and will be happy with any outcome. Of course he will! He's not doing it! LOL! I also don't think he understands how much I WANT to Labor and go through all that. He thinks I'm crazy to want to actually FEEL the pain, but I do! My friends' don't get it either, they all had normal births, and they ALL got epidurals. They all told me they would have rather had "planned" c-sections, but I think they are nuts! I thinks it's hard for people to relate when they haven't been what I have been through. To not feel labor, to not see your baby being born, to not hold them until an hour after being born... ugh.. I honestly don't want that again.
I think I'm just weepy and emotional this week. And stressing over something I have no control over. If I have a BIG baby again, or if I go over 41 wks, I get another c-section. I of course want a healthy baby, but I just wish I could have it all! lol!
On a good note, we get to find out what we're having this weekend!! I could not be more thrilled! :)
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from estone » Posted Apr. 3, 2015 3:59pm It sounds like maybe you had complications from your section. Mine was flawless and I was back to myself within a week. Also, the spinal shouldn't make your arms go numb, as it is supposed to numb from the waist down. My 2nd section was easier than my first, so hopefully you will have a better experience if you have to have another. |
| Comment from BMA625 » Posted Apr. 3, 2015 12:26pm Thanks Mcorinnes, I agree with you completely!! :) What's meant to be will be, and totally agree- a healthy baby is ALL that matters! Hayleycynthia, I was given a spinal so I wasn't able to move my arms! They showed me him, but I wasn't able to actually hold him until much later due to being numb and shakey :( |
 | Comment from hayleycynthia » Posted Apr. 3, 2015 7:59am Why did they not let you hold your baby? I had a c-section with my first and I got to hold her before the cord was even cut. My second was premium and even then I got to hold her within 15 mins and it only took that long as she was having real trouble breathing. As your Dr about holding your baby immediately. |
 | Comment from mcorinnes » Posted Apr. 2, 2015 3:53pm It will all work out just the way it is supposed to hun! Try not to think to much about it! I can understand where you are coming from in wanting a natural birth as I feel the same, but in the end, all that TRULY matters is a happy, healthy and loved baby!!! Also, YAY on getting to find out gender!!!!! SOOOO Exciting!!! |
