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My Due Date: I suffered a pregnancy lossAge: 34 years old
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Scared..want to cancel next DR appt
By gogoldgoldie1 » Posted May. 28, 2013 5:37pm - 239 views - 0 comments
Last time I went to the doc I calculated I was 5 weeks and not 6 weeks like I thought.. I am actually 6 weeks today (going by ovulation) or atleast when I think it happened. I am just afraid that what if they still dont see anything my next appointment. I know that probably wont happen and I am keeping my optimism. I really had a breakdown with SO and I know he felt bad bc I really feel like what if there is something wrong with this pregnancy too but I stopped thinking that way or jumping to conclusions. I honestly think my pregnancy is fine, I have my dates wrong, and I have some emotional things to clear up. Like I just need to let myself be happy, calm , and relax but I just wish I knew how to do that ...that is the hard part. I have been staying away from the websites and I am thinking about canceling my OBGYN appointment and waiting to make another one when I pass 8 weeks.. is that stupid? Idk.. why I am acting like this or being like this, I think I just want to save myself from being hurt or devastated if something is wrong and want to focus on school and get this out of my mind for alittle bit. But honestly, I can't. I got 2 of my pregnancy books and started reading Belly Laughs (jenny mccarthy) which is very entertaining and SO and I slept all weekend and ppl kept calling, wondering why were sleep so much.
I am starting to feel very full from very small amounts of food and after 4 hours of summer class, I come home and crash. Even after sleeping for 8 hours, I don't want to get out of bed so those are good signs and now I am just waiting for the morning sickness to kick in. This is the first time I will be sooo happy to have it show up and I can't wait bc it will be my sign that "everything is good".
I just want my baby in my arms, but as long as I know everything is good in my pregnancy I will be fine. But I know the number one step is too calm down and its so early!
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Scared..want to cancel next DR appt
By gogoldgoldie1 » Posted May. 28, 2013 5:37pm - 239 views - 0 comments
Last time I went to the doc I calculated I was 5 weeks and not 6 weeks like I thought.. I am actually 6 weeks today (going by ovulation) or atleast when I think it happened. I am just afraid that what if they still dont see anything my next appointment. I know that probably wont happen and I am keeping my optimism. I really had a breakdown with SO and I know he felt bad bc I really feel like what if there is something wrong with this pregnancy too but I stopped thinking that way or jumping to conclusions. I honestly think my pregnancy is fine, I have my dates wrong, and I have some emotional things to clear up. Like I just need to let myself be happy, calm , and relax but I just wish I knew how to do that ...that is the hard part. I have been staying away from the websites and I am thinking about canceling my OBGYN appointment and waiting to make another one when I pass 8 weeks.. is that stupid? Idk.. why I am acting like this or being like this, I think I just want to save myself from being hurt or devastated if something is wrong and want to focus on school and get this out of my mind for alittle bit. But honestly, I can't. I got 2 of my pregnancy books and started reading Belly Laughs (jenny mccarthy) which is very entertaining and SO and I slept all weekend and ppl kept calling, wondering why were sleep so much.
I am starting to feel very full from very small amounts of food and after 4 hours of summer class, I come home and crash. Even after sleeping for 8 hours, I don't want to get out of bed so those are good signs and now I am just waiting for the morning sickness to kick in. This is the first time I will be sooo happy to have it show up and I can't wait bc it will be my sign that "everything is good".
I just want my baby in my arms, but as long as I know everything is good in my pregnancy I will be fine. But I know the number one step is too calm down and its so early!
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