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My Due Date: I suffered a pregnancy lossAge: 48 years old
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Waiting is TORTURE!
By heartberry » Posted Sep. 29, 2015 11:23am - 368 views - 2 comments
My first ultrasound is on Friday @ 9:15am. Just 3 short mornings away. But I woke up at 1:40am this morning and couldn't fall back asleep for an hour because I realized that my ultrasound could potentially reveal devastating news. I know it's pointless to dwell, but I haven't been having very strong symptoms at all and I just don't really feel pregnant (only low energy & increased thirst). Part of me wishes that I was having nausea so that I could be sure that the baby is in there. I haven't had any bleeding other than the bright red spotting on the evening of September 12th and my HCG levels were nice and high that next morning on the 13th. So I'm pretty sure that I'm still pregnant, but I can't help but wonder.
Also, the only symptoms I ever had with my last pregnancy were tiredness and tingly nipples in the early weeks. So, this could just be another low symptom pregnancy. But it's so hard to wait to find out!!!!!! Plus I'm dying to know if I'm having twins or not! They implanted 2 embryos during the IVF treatment, so can Friday just please freaking hurry the heck up already!?!? I mean......come on.
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Waiting is TORTURE!
By heartberry » Posted Sep. 29, 2015 11:23am - 368 views - 2 comments
My first ultrasound is on Friday @ 9:15am. Just 3 short mornings away. But I woke up at 1:40am this morning and couldn't fall back asleep for an hour because I realized that my ultrasound could potentially reveal devastating news. I know it's pointless to dwell, but I haven't been having very strong symptoms at all and I just don't really feel pregnant (only low energy & increased thirst). Part of me wishes that I was having nausea so that I could be sure that the baby is in there. I haven't had any bleeding other than the bright red spotting on the evening of September 12th and my HCG levels were nice and high that next morning on the 13th. So I'm pretty sure that I'm still pregnant, but I can't help but wonder.
Also, the only symptoms I ever had with my last pregnancy were tiredness and tingly nipples in the early weeks. So, this could just be another low symptom pregnancy. But it's so hard to wait to find out!!!!!! Plus I'm dying to know if I'm having twins or not! They implanted 2 embryos during the IVF treatment, so can Friday just please freaking hurry the heck up already!?!? I mean......come on.
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from heartberry » Posted Oct. 6, 2015 10:51am Thanks for your comforting words, pbc910, but we had a negative outcome after all. There wasn't a heartbeat. So I guess we won't be able to add to our family after all. |
| Comment from pbc910 » Posted Sep. 30, 2015 10:25am I was petrified the week before my ultrasound and seriously expected not to see anything and that I would be told I was either not really pregnant or it wouldn't be viable even though I have no history that would indicate either. I felt completely normal, no symptoms, nothing! Of course, my ultrasound proved me completely wrong and it turned out not only was baby doing great, there was another along for the ride! It's hard not to worry but sometimes I would try to envision the best possible outcome so give me a bit of hope. Sending you positive energies for a great scan! |
