Community
Amarylis13's Pregnancy
My Due Date: September 27, 2014I have given birth!
View All My Journal Entries
jealousy and emptiness
By Amarylis13 » Posted Apr. 6, 2014 12:09pm - 183 views - 0 comments
I would love to know what it is like to have a father. Not someone who gave the sperm your mom needed, lived with you, and fed and clothed you while treating you like you were the worst thing that ever happened to him. I would love to know what it is like to have a FATHER. Someone who supports your dreams, shows interest in what you are passionate about, supports you more than financially while he legally has to, the first man in your life to show you what love is.
I am so jealous of my cousin getting a second chance with her dad, I am so proud of him cleaning up but it hurts seeing their loving relationship. Hearing about my friends going out for supper with their dad and their dad wanting to see them. My dad will not talk to me on the phone, will not even visit me. Only see him if he is present with my mom. I've been called dead weight as a child, a burden. When I was graduating and he asked what my plan was now I was done school he told me I would end up dead in a ditch because I am supposedly naive and stupid. I was told by him 6 weeks from my due date there was still time to change my mind. It hurts because I have no one to replace him with. I've never known what it was like to have my father love me and be there for me. Actually be proud of me.
My Journal
jealousy and emptiness
By Amarylis13 » Posted Apr. 6, 2014 12:09pm - 183 views - 0 comments
I would love to know what it is like to have a father. Not someone who gave the sperm your mom needed, lived with you, and fed and clothed you while treating you like you were the worst thing that ever happened to him. I would love to know what it is like to have a FATHER. Someone who supports your dreams, shows interest in what you are passionate about, supports you more than financially while he legally has to, the first man in your life to show you what love is.
I am so jealous of my cousin getting a second chance with her dad, I am so proud of him cleaning up but it hurts seeing their loving relationship. Hearing about my friends going out for supper with their dad and their dad wanting to see them. My dad will not talk to me on the phone, will not even visit me. Only see him if he is present with my mom. I've been called dead weight as a child, a burden. When I was graduating and he asked what my plan was now I was done school he told me I would end up dead in a ditch because I am supposedly naive and stupid. I was told by him 6 weeks from my due date there was still time to change my mind. It hurts because I have no one to replace him with. I've never known what it was like to have my father love me and be there for me. Actually be proud of me.
Comments for this Journal Entry
No comments yet. Be the first! |
