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HEARTBEAT!!!
By kkimke » Posted Oct. 19, 2014 1:03pm - 239 views - 1 comment
Well my mood was starting to go downhill last week, wondering if this was just going to end in another miscarriage. Every little pang I felt made me feel as though I was having a miscarriage. I phoned my doc's nurse and explained the situation. She was amazing and got me into get an ultrasound that very day! (Thursday the 16th). I was soooooooooooo nervous! My boss was awesome and let me leave work, but my bf wasn't able to get away. Each time I've had an ultrasound they told me that there was no baby there, so I was terrified, especially going alone. I could have called my mom but I didn't want to put her though the stress of me breaking down. Turns out, I wish I had asked her!! I drank so much water I thought I was going to puke, so waiting to get in was not only mentally straining, but physically as well. I had prepped myself the whole time with the fact that we may not see the heartbeat and that could still mean everything was ok, since I was only 6 weeks 6 days. There was a big tv screen on the ceiling, but I didn't want to look at what I thought would be an empty sac. I looked anyway though and there was the sac with what looked like a popcorn seed inside. There was also another huge empty sac and my heart leapt! I thought I was having twins!! Turns out it was my bladder, lol. She said I was measuring 5 weeks, so I thought, 'yep, here we go again." I assumed she was going to tell me that it stopped growing. As I was looking at it, I saw this little fluttering light, like a tiny light bulb going off and on. It quickly crossed my mind that maybe that was the heartbeat. But I quickly dismissed the thought. Then she said the most magical words "I think I can see the heartbeat ." I lost it. I started balling my eyes out. She showed me and what I thought was the heartbeat was the heartbeat! I've never been able to see one! She measured the rate and said it was right where it was supposed to be and took some more measurements and said I was 6 weeks, 3 days, which would make sense since I ovulated on day 17. I was so bizzare, getting good news. When I left I practically ran out of there, afraid that she was going to say 'o, I did see something wrong." I've been over the moon ever since, but I'm starting to sober up. My past experience has told me that it's best to stay distanced from everything so you don't get too attached. Maybe at my next ultrasound I can finally relax. I've read that after you see the hearbeat, your chances of miscarriage go down, but I'm still guarded. I see the doc on the 28th and then he'll book me in for another ultrasound. I wish I could just sleep for the next few weeks and wake up with a baby belly! :)
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HEARTBEAT!!!
By kkimke » Posted Oct. 19, 2014 1:03pm - 239 views - 1 comment
Well my mood was starting to go downhill last week, wondering if this was just going to end in another miscarriage. Every little pang I felt made me feel as though I was having a miscarriage. I phoned my doc's nurse and explained the situation. She was amazing and got me into get an ultrasound that very day! (Thursday the 16th). I was soooooooooooo nervous! My boss was awesome and let me leave work, but my bf wasn't able to get away. Each time I've had an ultrasound they told me that there was no baby there, so I was terrified, especially going alone. I could have called my mom but I didn't want to put her though the stress of me breaking down. Turns out, I wish I had asked her!! I drank so much water I thought I was going to puke, so waiting to get in was not only mentally straining, but physically as well. I had prepped myself the whole time with the fact that we may not see the heartbeat and that could still mean everything was ok, since I was only 6 weeks 6 days. There was a big tv screen on the ceiling, but I didn't want to look at what I thought would be an empty sac. I looked anyway though and there was the sac with what looked like a popcorn seed inside. There was also another huge empty sac and my heart leapt! I thought I was having twins!! Turns out it was my bladder, lol. She said I was measuring 5 weeks, so I thought, 'yep, here we go again." I assumed she was going to tell me that it stopped growing. As I was looking at it, I saw this little fluttering light, like a tiny light bulb going off and on. It quickly crossed my mind that maybe that was the heartbeat. But I quickly dismissed the thought. Then she said the most magical words "I think I can see the heartbeat ." I lost it. I started balling my eyes out. She showed me and what I thought was the heartbeat was the heartbeat! I've never been able to see one! She measured the rate and said it was right where it was supposed to be and took some more measurements and said I was 6 weeks, 3 days, which would make sense since I ovulated on day 17. I was so bizzare, getting good news. When I left I practically ran out of there, afraid that she was going to say 'o, I did see something wrong." I've been over the moon ever since, but I'm starting to sober up. My past experience has told me that it's best to stay distanced from everything so you don't get too attached. Maybe at my next ultrasound I can finally relax. I've read that after you see the hearbeat, your chances of miscarriage go down, but I'm still guarded. I see the doc on the 28th and then he'll book me in for another ultrasound. I wish I could just sleep for the next few weeks and wake up with a baby belly! :)
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 | Comment from stickybean1976 » Posted Oct. 19, 2014 3:46pm Hi I'm so pleased it went well yesterday for you. I hope it continues to go well. I have alway stayed dust aches with my history until this time. I'm 13w after 4 losses and 3 D&C's. Just remember even if you've had one m/c it doesn't mean you'll have another and you cannot help the unbalanced chromosomes that occur in so many pregnancies. Enjoy this moment and look forward to each scan. Congrats on finally getting to see your baby. Bless a wonderful moment. |
