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My Due Date: July 19, 2015I have given birth!
Age: 39 years old
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By rcorinne » Posted Jun. 19, 2015 11:09pm - 370 views - 3 comments
Guess what today is? It's the 19th... ....of June :( Okay, it's still pretty dang close to my due date.
I'm getting to the much more uncomfortable stage now. When Emma moves around my stomach visibly changes shape, and it kind of hurts. It's difficult to tell whether or not it's just her movements that are hurting me or if I'm actually experiencing some early contractions. Probably both. Also, my legs and hips are hurting more often. I'm up to almost 30 lb from my pre-pregnancy weight, which could explain some of the discomfort. I'm used to being on the small side. This much extra baggage, especially centered in my chest and belly, is disproportionate and hard on the body. My family is not helping me get any extra rest. Cameron has occasional nightmares. Especially with the late evening sunshine, he doesn't want to go to sleep until about 10pm each night, and often requires me to check on him or lie down with him to get him to calm down and go to sleep. DH has been going to social engagements or exercising every couple of days, meaning he's either coming home really late at night or waking up super early. I'm already a light sleeper, so there's no missing his comings and goings. It's no wonder I'm exhausted at the end of the day. Also, I've felt a few painful twinges near my cervix recently. It's making me curious about whether or not Emma is starting to engage. Final symptom: edema. On Tuesday evening when I undressed my legs and feet were visibly swollen from water retention. I did not sit down enough when I was training my replacement on his first day. I vowed to sit down more after that and take it easier if I could. On Wednesday it was hard to take it easy because we had a lot to cover. Yesterday, however, I was able to start putting him to work more, and sit back some. Today felt positively relaxed compared to earlier in the week. I still feel like I have much more to get done than I can possibly fit into the coming weeks. BUT, I will be okay. I have my next appointment on Tuesday morning. They're doing a GBS test, the first internal exam/test since I was 8 weeks, which makes me wonder if they'll also check on my cervix. I could swear they didn't check how I was progressing until ~39 weeks with Cameron, but that could be my poor memory. The edema has not been as bad as it was on Tuesday, but it's fueling my fear of gestational hypertension. I still don't want an induction, but there are some bad side effects/indicators of bigger problems that come with hypertension. It scares and excites me to be experiencing symptoms that I had at the end with Cam. If I knew that an induction would proceed smoothly and result in a safe vaginal delivery within 24 hours, I'd opt for scheduling one as soon as I'm full term. However, it wasn't so simple last time, and it felt unnecessary. I'm feeling conflicted. I'm starting to want the baby to come, so I will be done with this pregnancy and it's discomforts, but I know she's gotta grow more, I have baby showers, employee training, and a bit more nesting to do. Also, efforts to make her come before she's ready may not be effective....
Pleas excuse my ramblings. It's hard to think or type coherently these days. My poor trainee has to deal with me struggling to find the right word or phrase as I impart to him 7 years worth of work knowledge that may or may not be organized or prioritized effectively in my head. Meanwhile I'm constantly dealing with personal emotions and thoughts swirling around my fuzzy brain at the same time. I miss my semi-absent husband. I miss my old body and clothes. I miss ME time that I haven't really had since Cameron was born. Even as I type (kind of lazily on my bed), I've got children's programming on Netflix and am reminding Cam that we have to get ready for bed. I wanted to be a mom. We tried and succeeded twice in getting pregnant. I'm so blessed. I'm just feeling like I'm so over it sometimes, you know?
Thank goodness for CMP and CTP.
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By rcorinne » Posted Jun. 19, 2015 11:09pm - 370 views - 3 comments
Guess what today is? It's the 19th... ....of June :( Okay, it's still pretty dang close to my due date.
I'm getting to the much more uncomfortable stage now. When Emma moves around my stomach visibly changes shape, and it kind of hurts. It's difficult to tell whether or not it's just her movements that are hurting me or if I'm actually experiencing some early contractions. Probably both. Also, my legs and hips are hurting more often. I'm up to almost 30 lb from my pre-pregnancy weight, which could explain some of the discomfort. I'm used to being on the small side. This much extra baggage, especially centered in my chest and belly, is disproportionate and hard on the body. My family is not helping me get any extra rest. Cameron has occasional nightmares. Especially with the late evening sunshine, he doesn't want to go to sleep until about 10pm each night, and often requires me to check on him or lie down with him to get him to calm down and go to sleep. DH has been going to social engagements or exercising every couple of days, meaning he's either coming home really late at night or waking up super early. I'm already a light sleeper, so there's no missing his comings and goings. It's no wonder I'm exhausted at the end of the day. Also, I've felt a few painful twinges near my cervix recently. It's making me curious about whether or not Emma is starting to engage. Final symptom: edema. On Tuesday evening when I undressed my legs and feet were visibly swollen from water retention. I did not sit down enough when I was training my replacement on his first day. I vowed to sit down more after that and take it easier if I could. On Wednesday it was hard to take it easy because we had a lot to cover. Yesterday, however, I was able to start putting him to work more, and sit back some. Today felt positively relaxed compared to earlier in the week. I still feel like I have much more to get done than I can possibly fit into the coming weeks. BUT, I will be okay. I have my next appointment on Tuesday morning. They're doing a GBS test, the first internal exam/test since I was 8 weeks, which makes me wonder if they'll also check on my cervix. I could swear they didn't check how I was progressing until ~39 weeks with Cameron, but that could be my poor memory. The edema has not been as bad as it was on Tuesday, but it's fueling my fear of gestational hypertension. I still don't want an induction, but there are some bad side effects/indicators of bigger problems that come with hypertension. It scares and excites me to be experiencing symptoms that I had at the end with Cam. If I knew that an induction would proceed smoothly and result in a safe vaginal delivery within 24 hours, I'd opt for scheduling one as soon as I'm full term. However, it wasn't so simple last time, and it felt unnecessary. I'm feeling conflicted. I'm starting to want the baby to come, so I will be done with this pregnancy and it's discomforts, but I know she's gotta grow more, I have baby showers, employee training, and a bit more nesting to do. Also, efforts to make her come before she's ready may not be effective....
Pleas excuse my ramblings. It's hard to think or type coherently these days. My poor trainee has to deal with me struggling to find the right word or phrase as I impart to him 7 years worth of work knowledge that may or may not be organized or prioritized effectively in my head. Meanwhile I'm constantly dealing with personal emotions and thoughts swirling around my fuzzy brain at the same time. I miss my semi-absent husband. I miss my old body and clothes. I miss ME time that I haven't really had since Cameron was born. Even as I type (kind of lazily on my bed), I've got children's programming on Netflix and am reminding Cam that we have to get ready for bed. I wanted to be a mom. We tried and succeeded twice in getting pregnant. I'm so blessed. I'm just feeling like I'm so over it sometimes, you know?
Thank goodness for CMP and CTP.
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from itsbeans » Posted Jun. 21, 2015 7:03am I totally feel you on the discomfort, I can't blame mine on weight gain, I've actually,sadly, been significantly heavier than I am right now and been less uncomfortable! I blame it all on the distribution! I haven't gained more than 3lbs this entire pregnancy and I am the most uncomfortable I have ever been in my life! Soon is what they keep telling me, it's not that helpful but there is an endpoint, at least to this type of bodily discomfort! |
 | Comment from Julia01 » Posted Jun. 20, 2015 7:29am We are 3 days apart :) , I'm wondering as well if next week my doc will do the beta strep test and also check my cervix . I've been havin super sharp pains in my cervix that will stop u in ur tracks and my croch hurts (srry tmi) , been getting awful pulsating off and on pains in my lower back as well . She seems much bigger then my other 3 babies. Due to my passed history if I'm not in labor on my own around 38 weeks they will induce , I'm hoping these last few weeks goes by super fast for us !!! Oh and my family doesn't make it any easier either :( still the maid here, and I feel like the house isn't ba y ready yet even though the crib is all set up , guess it bc the others here constantly are making messes, I don't want to come home from labor to dishes and laundry !!!! |
 | Comment from RedBetty » Posted Jun. 20, 2015 2:43am Feel you totally hun, you just described what me and practically all other mommies to be are feeling, I'm sure. I miss me too... Don't worry hun, the countdown has officially begun. Hugs |
