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My Due Date: I suffered a pregnancy lossAge: 37 years old
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I'm out...
By burningfirestar » Posted Oct. 10, 2015 8:40pm - 295 views - 0 comments
So much for hope and faith.
My appointment was horrible on Tuesday. The in office urine test came back negative, and I found myself quietly hoping and praying for it to be the hook affect. The doctor flat out refused to do a quantitative beta, even when I explained why I was asking for it. Then I couldn't get a hold of the results coordinator about the blood work I did that day. They called to tell me about a referral for my youngest son, and through that I was able to get to the results coordinator to be told it was negative. I don't even know what to say about this. I have no answers, is it a false positive? A miscarriage? Is there something else going on with me that needs to be taken care of, but since the doctor's won't answer the basic question of how much hcg is in my body, how can I know? They won't do more then that.
I'm licking my wounds right now. I've decided no more hpts. If I magically wind up pregnant and it sticks, I'll find out when the baby is born, and deny it up until that point.
In the meantime, I'll continue to let the song Oceans go through my head and hope that it's enough to help me cling to faith.
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I'm out...
By burningfirestar » Posted Oct. 10, 2015 8:40pm - 295 views - 0 comments
So much for hope and faith.
My appointment was horrible on Tuesday. The in office urine test came back negative, and I found myself quietly hoping and praying for it to be the hook affect. The doctor flat out refused to do a quantitative beta, even when I explained why I was asking for it. Then I couldn't get a hold of the results coordinator about the blood work I did that day. They called to tell me about a referral for my youngest son, and through that I was able to get to the results coordinator to be told it was negative. I don't even know what to say about this. I have no answers, is it a false positive? A miscarriage? Is there something else going on with me that needs to be taken care of, but since the doctor's won't answer the basic question of how much hcg is in my body, how can I know? They won't do more then that.
I'm licking my wounds right now. I've decided no more hpts. If I magically wind up pregnant and it sticks, I'll find out when the baby is born, and deny it up until that point.
In the meantime, I'll continue to let the song Oceans go through my head and hope that it's enough to help me cling to faith.
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