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My Due Date: December 25, 2016I am postpartum » My due date was more than 2 weeks ago
Age: 42 years old
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Today was a Rough Day....
By loopygrl » Posted Apr. 27, 2016 2:22pm - 352 views - 0 comments
Today was a rough day. My Dad’s dog died this morning. Not only was he dad’s best friend, but he was mama’s sweetheart and protector, and a beloved member of our family. We were just hoping that he would save us and my mom the added heartache for just a little while longer. And although he was a good old dog, he just hadn’t been the same since dad passed.
My husband said that I don’t seem overly excited about the baby. Of course that’s not true, I am super excited, but I am also nervous. From the day my dad was diagnosed, my whole focus in life was on his fight and taking care of him, and there was little in the way of good news to be had. Every test, every scan, every treatment brought with it more bad news. This baby is one of only a few good things to happen in a long time and it’s hard to not worry about it, and worry about the stress that worrying about it puts on me, and so on.
I know this supposed to be about my pregnancy and I seem to be consumed with everything else going on, but for me that’s part of it. The reality of losing my dad and the changes it will bring have yet to even sink in and then to find out that I am pregnant so soon after, it all just seems so surreal. I am experiencing a lot of mixed (not to mention newly heightened) emotions and some days I just don’t feel like myself
Today was just a rough day, but I know tomorrow will be better. (4/25)
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Today was a Rough Day....
By loopygrl » Posted Apr. 27, 2016 2:22pm - 352 views - 0 comments
Today was a rough day. My Dad’s dog died this morning. Not only was he dad’s best friend, but he was mama’s sweetheart and protector, and a beloved member of our family. We were just hoping that he would save us and my mom the added heartache for just a little while longer. And although he was a good old dog, he just hadn’t been the same since dad passed.
My husband said that I don’t seem overly excited about the baby. Of course that’s not true, I am super excited, but I am also nervous. From the day my dad was diagnosed, my whole focus in life was on his fight and taking care of him, and there was little in the way of good news to be had. Every test, every scan, every treatment brought with it more bad news. This baby is one of only a few good things to happen in a long time and it’s hard to not worry about it, and worry about the stress that worrying about it puts on me, and so on.
I know this supposed to be about my pregnancy and I seem to be consumed with everything else going on, but for me that’s part of it. The reality of losing my dad and the changes it will bring have yet to even sink in and then to find out that I am pregnant so soon after, it all just seems so surreal. I am experiencing a lot of mixed (not to mention newly heightened) emotions and some days I just don’t feel like myself
Today was just a rough day, but I know tomorrow will be better. (4/25)
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