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By natdes83 » Posted May. 31, 2011 7:59am - 332 views - 1 comment
I was recently asked to write a blog for a website, regarding my pregnancy and thought I'd share with you all... I guess it's my way of letting my real emotions out as I'm sick and tired of lying about the way I feel.. don't get me wrong I'm happy I'm pregnant, and I can't wait for the lil mushkin to be in my arms, but lately... this pretty much sums me up...
I'm a 27 yr old accounting & human resources manager and my boyfriend is a 25 year old mechanic, from NB, Canada. We found out on Friday April 22nd that we would be expecting our first little bundle of joy! What did we feel you ask?!? Excitement, nervousness, scared, happy, worried..... and that's just to name a few!! I think every emotion in the dictionary went through our bodies! That was 5 weeks ago, I am now 8 weeks pregnant, with a due date of January 4th. Am I still experiencing the same emotions? Not quite. Lately I'm bored, frustrated, scared ect ect... The excitement has passed, there is no baby bump, no movement, which causes me to be frustrated because even though I do not feel physically pregnant, mentally I have all the tell-tale signs. Crankiness, exhaustion, & sleeplessness.
Telling the people you care for... it's hard... you expect people to be excited for you. then you get "oh really.." well why don't you shove that knife a lil deeper why don't you?!? My boyfriend and i are happy about this news... we kinda expected our families to be as excited... :( But also what is going to be harder for myself, is telling my boss. He's the type fo man that would not be shy to ask a new employee "do you plan on having a family?" at an interview, he just doesn't seem to care. I told myself I would talk to him when I hit the 3 month mark, but until then that's all I seem to be stressing about which I know I shouldn't. However, my mother she is crazy excited, maybe even a little too much?? The crib is bought, the changing table/dresser is bought, even the baby shower is starting to get organized! I have quite alot to say about baby showers but I'll hit that on another post because I seem to be going everywhere today!!
My first pre-natal visit is scheduled for June 8th, which I cannot wait for, maybe that will get me a little excited about the pregnancy again!
I know this isn't "happy go lucky" as most blogs probably look like when it comes to pregnancy, but this is how I feel right now and why lie about how I'm feeling?? This is a blog about my pregnancy is it not? And who knows maybe just maybe it'll make others that feel like me, speak out.
I'm not afraid of showing my emotions, good or bad. I've dealt with depression since the age of 16, and I was the first student at my school to speak out about depression. Believe me not long after, I was approached by students and teachers, telling me how much I had helped them realise that what they were feeling was not normal, and that they needed to seek help. To this day as a human resources manager, when I have employees come talk to me about their feelings, I'm not scared to tell them my story, as I know it'll help them knowing, they are not alone.
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*SIGH*
By natdes83 » Posted May. 31, 2011 7:59am - 332 views - 1 comment
I was recently asked to write a blog for a website, regarding my pregnancy and thought I'd share with you all... I guess it's my way of letting my real emotions out as I'm sick and tired of lying about the way I feel.. don't get me wrong I'm happy I'm pregnant, and I can't wait for the lil mushkin to be in my arms, but lately... this pretty much sums me up...
I'm a 27 yr old accounting & human resources manager and my boyfriend is a 25 year old mechanic, from NB, Canada. We found out on Friday April 22nd that we would be expecting our first little bundle of joy! What did we feel you ask?!? Excitement, nervousness, scared, happy, worried..... and that's just to name a few!! I think every emotion in the dictionary went through our bodies! That was 5 weeks ago, I am now 8 weeks pregnant, with a due date of January 4th. Am I still experiencing the same emotions? Not quite. Lately I'm bored, frustrated, scared ect ect... The excitement has passed, there is no baby bump, no movement, which causes me to be frustrated because even though I do not feel physically pregnant, mentally I have all the tell-tale signs. Crankiness, exhaustion, & sleeplessness.
Telling the people you care for... it's hard... you expect people to be excited for you. then you get "oh really.." well why don't you shove that knife a lil deeper why don't you?!? My boyfriend and i are happy about this news... we kinda expected our families to be as excited... :( But also what is going to be harder for myself, is telling my boss. He's the type fo man that would not be shy to ask a new employee "do you plan on having a family?" at an interview, he just doesn't seem to care. I told myself I would talk to him when I hit the 3 month mark, but until then that's all I seem to be stressing about which I know I shouldn't. However, my mother she is crazy excited, maybe even a little too much?? The crib is bought, the changing table/dresser is bought, even the baby shower is starting to get organized! I have quite alot to say about baby showers but I'll hit that on another post because I seem to be going everywhere today!!
My first pre-natal visit is scheduled for June 8th, which I cannot wait for, maybe that will get me a little excited about the pregnancy again!
I know this isn't "happy go lucky" as most blogs probably look like when it comes to pregnancy, but this is how I feel right now and why lie about how I'm feeling?? This is a blog about my pregnancy is it not? And who knows maybe just maybe it'll make others that feel like me, speak out.
I'm not afraid of showing my emotions, good or bad. I've dealt with depression since the age of 16, and I was the first student at my school to speak out about depression. Believe me not long after, I was approached by students and teachers, telling me how much I had helped them realise that what they were feeling was not normal, and that they needed to seek help. To this day as a human resources manager, when I have employees come talk to me about their feelings, I'm not scared to tell them my story, as I know it'll help them knowing, they are not alone.
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 | Comment from Shannybum » Posted Jun. 1, 2011 4:59pm Thank you for sharing |
