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My Due Date: July 23, 2013I have given birth!
Age: 40 years old
Location: Kankakee, United States
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So anxious!
By babyspraker » Posted Feb. 17, 2013 6:35pm - 301 views - 1 comment
I'm getting so anxious about everything. I've been emotional lately and starting to cry about anything. Yesterday I broke down to my husband because none of my pants fit me anymore. I have maternity pants, but my legs are larger and muscular so my waist size fits but it'll be too tight on my legs...blah blah blah. Over the past 4 years I worked really hard to lose over 50 lbs. I was SO close to my goal weight and I just couldn't get there. Now that I'm gaining weight again, I'm starting to freak out. I know its pregnancy weight, but it comes back on so fast and I'm afraid I"ll never lose it again. I know I"ve gained a little more than I should have at this point, but the junk food is just calling my name, especially since during my weight loss journey I basically starved myself from all the bad stuff and now I just want it more than ever! I'm anxious, too, because it seems like things have stalled. I've started showing, but nothing else is really happening right now. I'm waiting to feel movement so maybe it'll all feel a little more real then. My husband and I bought our baby furniture today. Its way early, but we have a super deal of a coupon that expires this weekend and we didn't want it to go to waste! It was an exciting moment to have that milestone. Now we just have to wait the 8-10 weeks for it to come in! I just don't know what to do anymore. I'll cry over anything, I'm freakin out about my weight, and I want to eat potato chips all the time! What do I do?!
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So anxious!
By babyspraker » Posted Feb. 17, 2013 6:35pm - 301 views - 1 comment
I'm getting so anxious about everything. I've been emotional lately and starting to cry about anything. Yesterday I broke down to my husband because none of my pants fit me anymore. I have maternity pants, but my legs are larger and muscular so my waist size fits but it'll be too tight on my legs...blah blah blah. Over the past 4 years I worked really hard to lose over 50 lbs. I was SO close to my goal weight and I just couldn't get there. Now that I'm gaining weight again, I'm starting to freak out. I know its pregnancy weight, but it comes back on so fast and I'm afraid I"ll never lose it again. I know I"ve gained a little more than I should have at this point, but the junk food is just calling my name, especially since during my weight loss journey I basically starved myself from all the bad stuff and now I just want it more than ever! I'm anxious, too, because it seems like things have stalled. I've started showing, but nothing else is really happening right now. I'm waiting to feel movement so maybe it'll all feel a little more real then. My husband and I bought our baby furniture today. Its way early, but we have a super deal of a coupon that expires this weekend and we didn't want it to go to waste! It was an exciting moment to have that milestone. Now we just have to wait the 8-10 weeks for it to come in! I just don't know what to do anymore. I'll cry over anything, I'm freakin out about my weight, and I want to eat potato chips all the time! What do I do?!
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 | Comment from Quartz3 » Posted Feb. 17, 2013 6:44pm I totally understand the weight part... I TFMR at 17 weeks back in June, and I had gained 15 pounds. I didn't have time to lose all of it before I got pregnant again, so seeing all the pounds I had JUST lost pile up again is so depressing! And because I was 5 pounds heavier than "normal" to begin with, even if I only gained 5 pounds, to me, it's still 10 pounds! Oh well, it's all for a good cause! I guess that's what we have to remember and focus on! |
