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ericalee's Pregnancy
My Due Date: December 1, 2016I have given birth!
Age: 41 years old
Location: Madison, United States
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No heartbeat
By ericalee » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 7:52am - 880 views - 22 comments
Our world was shattered yesterday. We went for my growth ultrasound and my OB was again having a hard time getting a good picture of the baby, which we ran into last time as well. This time, I had a bad feeling because I didn't even see a little flashing heartbeat like last time. I got sent to the hospital for a second ultrasound on better machines and I lay there a long time, just me and the u/s tech while she was trying to take measurements. I knew that it wasn't good... There was no flashing light... no mention of a heartbeat. The one size measurement she got was only 6w2d... which is smaller than last time and very far off from where I should be.
After a very long wait, I was told to go back to my OB's office, which wasn't possible because I needed to pick up my daughter from daycare. I called her office and talking to a nurse, letting them know the situation and that I expected to hear bad news. I asked if they could call me instead. My OB called about 10 minutes later and told me what I was expecting... the baby was gone....
I'm pretty numb. It doesn't seem real. I thought we had made it over the hump. We saw a great heartbeat, great growth, etc. My immune numbers were looking good. I am just at such a loss.
Now I wait. I'm opting to see if my body will start the process on its own. Then we have to avoid for a month to have one regular cycle before we can try again. I just can't believe this is happening again. I really wanted my miscarriage count to end at 5... and now I need to hope 6 is where it ends..
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No heartbeat
By ericalee » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 7:52am - 880 views - 22 comments
Our world was shattered yesterday. We went for my growth ultrasound and my OB was again having a hard time getting a good picture of the baby, which we ran into last time as well. This time, I had a bad feeling because I didn't even see a little flashing heartbeat like last time. I got sent to the hospital for a second ultrasound on better machines and I lay there a long time, just me and the u/s tech while she was trying to take measurements. I knew that it wasn't good... There was no flashing light... no mention of a heartbeat. The one size measurement she got was only 6w2d... which is smaller than last time and very far off from where I should be.
After a very long wait, I was told to go back to my OB's office, which wasn't possible because I needed to pick up my daughter from daycare. I called her office and talking to a nurse, letting them know the situation and that I expected to hear bad news. I asked if they could call me instead. My OB called about 10 minutes later and told me what I was expecting... the baby was gone....
I'm pretty numb. It doesn't seem real. I thought we had made it over the hump. We saw a great heartbeat, great growth, etc. My immune numbers were looking good. I am just at such a loss.
Now I wait. I'm opting to see if my body will start the process on its own. Then we have to avoid for a month to have one regular cycle before we can try again. I just can't believe this is happening again. I really wanted my miscarriage count to end at 5... and now I need to hope 6 is where it ends..
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from stephc2010 » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 10:51am I'm so sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. |
 | Comment from thomasanddawnxoxo » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 10:26am I'm so sorry :( I wish I could hug you so to tight. I will pray for your family and your little Angel. Xoxo. |
 | Comment from MalPal85 » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 10:19am So sorry for your loss. Thinking of you! |
 | Comment from aprilluvsmoz » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 9:19am Im so sorry for your loss, my thoughts and prayers will be with you. |
 | Comment from Cattsmeow » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 9:14am I am so sorry for your loss. Love and light to you and your family during this time. I will light a candle for your angels this evening when I light candles for all of Heaven's tiniest angels. |
| Comment from Starmama14 » Posted Oct. 15, 2015 8:34am Oh my gosh. I definitely wasn't expecting to see this news from you :( I am so incredibly sorry for your loss! *hugs*. |
