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My Due Date: April 27, 2018I have given birth!
Age: 32 years old
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Miscarriage and possibly a new BFP
By _Roux_ » Posted Mar. 2, 2017 4:09am - 596 views - 2 comments
I didn't want to share when it happened. When my hcg dropped, my test lines faded back out, and my doctor finally reported that I was no longer pregnant. It took some time, but I started bleeding on my own, heavily, painfully. 6 weeks. 6 weeks was all I got with my little peanut. I was heartbroken... And in my desperation to "get back" what I lost, I worked even harder to conceive again. OPKs every day, more supplements than real food, so much Preseed I had to purchase a second tube. I think my faint positives are the only reason I have the courage to talk about this now.
I'm not 100% sure, but I am getting faint lines once again on walmart cheapies this time, and my symptoms, though fewer in number, are much stronger than last time. I think I'm pregnant again. This will put me around 4-5 weeks behind the cycle sisters I started with, but here I am.
I don't know what I was thinking - another baby I have to keep secret? Going through the stress and fear of a pregnancy post miscarriage alone? Hiding symptoms once again?
I'll post my new pregnancy next week if I get clearer positives. If not, this is goodbye, until a better time for TTC. Here's wishing my cycle/bump sisters a happy and healthy 6-7 more months!
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Miscarriage and possibly a new BFP
By _Roux_ » Posted Mar. 2, 2017 4:09am - 596 views - 2 comments
I didn't want to share when it happened. When my hcg dropped, my test lines faded back out, and my doctor finally reported that I was no longer pregnant. It took some time, but I started bleeding on my own, heavily, painfully. 6 weeks. 6 weeks was all I got with my little peanut. I was heartbroken... And in my desperation to "get back" what I lost, I worked even harder to conceive again. OPKs every day, more supplements than real food, so much Preseed I had to purchase a second tube. I think my faint positives are the only reason I have the courage to talk about this now.
I'm not 100% sure, but I am getting faint lines once again on walmart cheapies this time, and my symptoms, though fewer in number, are much stronger than last time. I think I'm pregnant again. This will put me around 4-5 weeks behind the cycle sisters I started with, but here I am.
I don't know what I was thinking - another baby I have to keep secret? Going through the stress and fear of a pregnancy post miscarriage alone? Hiding symptoms once again?
I'll post my new pregnancy next week if I get clearer positives. If not, this is goodbye, until a better time for TTC. Here's wishing my cycle/bump sisters a happy and healthy 6-7 more months!
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from mtngems » Posted Mar. 13, 2017 11:11am Hugs to you, lady! So sorry you have been carrying such a burden. A loss isn't an easy thing to experience or to share, so I hope you are finding some peace. Sending you lots of good thoughts, and big warm congratulations!! |
 | Comment from Meghan83 » Posted Mar. 3, 2017 2:34pm I'm so sorry for your loss. Prayers for a healthy, sticky little bean. Sending lots of love to you! xo |
