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Age: 40 years old
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To Google or not to Google
By Sianny » Posted May. 1, 2014 2:48pm - 293 views - 6 comments
Every pregnancy is different but not every pregnancy is normal so when do you worry? With my son I had not a concern in the world as the months melted by and I grew and grew and grew. Yet with my second pregnancy it all went wrong from the moment I whizzed on the stick.
So when I went to the toilet for the billionth time on Sunday, my heart dropped, light brown spotting on my liner.
I instantly flung myself into the bedroom in fits of tears and told my husband that I wasn't going through this again and I wanted out (Hormonal much???).
Pregnancy number two had started very much this way you see, except the brown got heavy, the heavy turned red and I had occasional shooting pain but although scans showed nothing was wrong at the time the pregnancy just wasn't meant to be.
What made the whole experience worse was the dreaded Dr Google!!!! -Dun Dun Duuuuuuuuuuuun-
I googled and worried and read horrifying tales of heartbreak and fretted until I couldn't take anymore and knew that something was not right and for another four weeks I was miserable until I discovered my suspicions had been right. Then I worried that my worrying had ended it all, googling this is also NOT RECOMMENDED.
So now I'm googling again like a woman possessed and reading tales of brown spotting turning to red and then on came the dreaded miscarriage, ruptured fallopian tubes, baby crushing growths and chemical pregnancies.Heartbreaking for the tale tellers and concerning for all fellow googlers.
I came across a forum with a young woman who was going exactly what I was going through after a missed miscarriage and crying out for help yet although a lot of people commented with reassurance the young lady never replied so I was left with my over active imagination filling in the gaps.
The sobbing got worse as my hubby tried to reassure me and point out how common spotting was but I was having none of it. In a few hours I picked myself up, put on a sanitary towel and set my mind to the end.
I'm such a bloody drama queen.
48hrs...
48hrs and the spotting didn't get worse, in fact its gone. (I cried again then too, I also cried at Thomas the tank engine but that's another story)
So this is where I should stand up and shout DO NOT GOOGLE YOUR SYMPTOMS! Yet I will not because I have discovered that there is very little help and reassurance out there for weeks 4 - 6 unless your symptoms are dire, but how do you know what dire is? How do you know brown is normal? How do you get the help you need when the Dr's won't see you at short notice or count you as an emergency case, in fact with the trouble I was having with pregnacy number two I was told I wasn't considered pregnant by my surgery until I have seen a midwife who won't see me unless I'm past 8wks. I realise this is not always the case with every drs though but for me and others It sadly is the case.
Where can we turn when what we expect when we are expecting is not what we expected at all?
Google.
With Goggle I learnt about the process of an ERPC so I was less frightened, I found out that early pregnancy symptoms are a lot PMT so I never got excited then disappointed and I also discovered that I am not the only one freaking out because of something so common making me feel normal and sleep better.
So my point is if you're going to google then know that with every symptom you are not sure of there is at least one that doesn't have a happy ending, take everything with a pinch of salt and over all if it really is concerning you, badger the hell out of a medical professional because he or she will be the only ones to truly reassure you (by you I mean me) that you/I do not have some far flung tropical disease and I will be able to kick back and relax and enjoy pregnancy...
Well at least until the next time I need to google ;)
Stay healthy all! 5 Weeks tomorrow Whoooooooooooooooo! Sticky thoughts!
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To Google or not to Google
By Sianny » Posted May. 1, 2014 2:48pm - 293 views - 6 comments
Every pregnancy is different but not every pregnancy is normal so when do you worry? With my son I had not a concern in the world as the months melted by and I grew and grew and grew. Yet with my second pregnancy it all went wrong from the moment I whizzed on the stick.
So when I went to the toilet for the billionth time on Sunday, my heart dropped, light brown spotting on my liner.
I instantly flung myself into the bedroom in fits of tears and told my husband that I wasn't going through this again and I wanted out (Hormonal much???).
Pregnancy number two had started very much this way you see, except the brown got heavy, the heavy turned red and I had occasional shooting pain but although scans showed nothing was wrong at the time the pregnancy just wasn't meant to be.
What made the whole experience worse was the dreaded Dr Google!!!! -Dun Dun Duuuuuuuuuuuun-
I googled and worried and read horrifying tales of heartbreak and fretted until I couldn't take anymore and knew that something was not right and for another four weeks I was miserable until I discovered my suspicions had been right. Then I worried that my worrying had ended it all, googling this is also NOT RECOMMENDED.
So now I'm googling again like a woman possessed and reading tales of brown spotting turning to red and then on came the dreaded miscarriage, ruptured fallopian tubes, baby crushing growths and chemical pregnancies.Heartbreaking for the tale tellers and concerning for all fellow googlers.
I came across a forum with a young woman who was going exactly what I was going through after a missed miscarriage and crying out for help yet although a lot of people commented with reassurance the young lady never replied so I was left with my over active imagination filling in the gaps.
The sobbing got worse as my hubby tried to reassure me and point out how common spotting was but I was having none of it. In a few hours I picked myself up, put on a sanitary towel and set my mind to the end.
I'm such a bloody drama queen.
48hrs...
48hrs and the spotting didn't get worse, in fact its gone. (I cried again then too, I also cried at Thomas the tank engine but that's another story)
So this is where I should stand up and shout DO NOT GOOGLE YOUR SYMPTOMS! Yet I will not because I have discovered that there is very little help and reassurance out there for weeks 4 - 6 unless your symptoms are dire, but how do you know what dire is? How do you know brown is normal? How do you get the help you need when the Dr's won't see you at short notice or count you as an emergency case, in fact with the trouble I was having with pregnacy number two I was told I wasn't considered pregnant by my surgery until I have seen a midwife who won't see me unless I'm past 8wks. I realise this is not always the case with every drs though but for me and others It sadly is the case.
Where can we turn when what we expect when we are expecting is not what we expected at all?
Google.
With Goggle I learnt about the process of an ERPC so I was less frightened, I found out that early pregnancy symptoms are a lot PMT so I never got excited then disappointed and I also discovered that I am not the only one freaking out because of something so common making me feel normal and sleep better.
So my point is if you're going to google then know that with every symptom you are not sure of there is at least one that doesn't have a happy ending, take everything with a pinch of salt and over all if it really is concerning you, badger the hell out of a medical professional because he or she will be the only ones to truly reassure you (by you I mean me) that you/I do not have some far flung tropical disease and I will be able to kick back and relax and enjoy pregnancy...
Well at least until the next time I need to google ;)
Stay healthy all! 5 Weeks tomorrow Whoooooooooooooooo! Sticky thoughts!
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from Sianny » Posted May. 4, 2014 12:48am Thank you for reading it and congratulations. You must have been very worried with your son and also very brave. I'm trying so hard no to visit dr Google for every twinge but I am also worried that my scan will show another missed miscarriage. Roll on scan day. |
 | Comment from josamarie » Posted May. 3, 2014 6:07am I love this post! I spent untold hours on Dr. Google looking for hope and horror when we lost our little girl to triploidy last year (both immediately after the fateful ultrasound and for months after), then again whenever I spotted, cramped, or hiccuped funny during my pregnancy with our son. I can't tell you how many times my mom and I argued about my googling ways, and I'm still not sure if it helped or hurt my sanity... but since I'm nursing my beautiful little boy right now, I do know that sometimes it turns out ok in the end even when you've been through hell! Good luck and congratulations! |
| Comment from Sianny » Posted May. 3, 2014 12:23am So glad it worked out for you x It all looks like old blood so I'm a lot calmer now but I do feel I've had enough BD to last me a life time well at least until I'm comfortably in the second trimester hehehe. Hubby comes near me with ideas now I'm going to whack him with my 'what to expect' book ;) |
 | Comment from Angela18 » Posted May. 2, 2014 11:01pm I know how ya feel. I've spotted 4/5 pregnancies, 2 of those times I miscarried. Even this last time I did the whole flip out thing...listened to Tori Amos and did a lot of crying. Luckily all was well just a little hemorrhage that resolved itself. Hopefully you won't see anymore spotting :). Now remember if you BD it could also cause spotting. |
| Comment from Sianny » Posted May. 2, 2014 12:34am I'm sorry for your loss and oddly enough I read up on Placenta Previa after one of my googling sessions although I had never heard of it before then. It must have been rather scary. Coming into 2years is the best as they do something new and normally really funny. Thank you and I am trying not to freak out all the time hehe. |
| Comment from estone » Posted May. 1, 2014 8:17pm I was the same way after I lost my twins in 2011. I was a mess with my sons pregnancy, especially because I had spotting until 13 weeks. I ended u having placenta previa that went undiagnosed and I had my son at 34 weeks when it ruptured. He is now a healthy 20 month old. I do know brown spotting is very common in the 1st trimester. Hope u have a h&h 9 months. |
